Reflection of My Life

End of 2011!!!!

2011-12-25T22:39:00.002+08:00

Hi guys its been a while since my last post and in few days we will kick out the 2011 and start another new year 2012!!! So... have you start to list out all your resolution for this new year??? For me, I have a long list this year, not like previous years which only < 5? this year I learn, see and get a lot of new things, such: feeling, view, skills, relationships, friendships, and experiences.

This year resolution list wont be published here but I have just thought about my first resolution which I learned few hours ago after accumulate all of the similar experiences in the past I concluded that if I cant accomplish this one it will affect my future for sure!!! Enough with the first resolution, how about you guys? anything to share about your new year resoultion? dont be shy, you can put one as comments for this post =P

Anyway, the new years is coming, Chinese new year is coming and many more but have you choose where will you spend your new year's eve this year? I haven't choose where will I go since I'm not sure where to go but my gf suggest one kind of idea maybe we will try that, sounds fun =D.

Oh yeah btw, Merry Christmas guys, today is the day!!! almost forget to put it here =). I will be away again for sometimes (or not? let see) so... Happy New Year 2012 in advance ;).

Quotes: "I believe it's never too late to change yourself, your fate or your mindset, you just need to believe and try your best!". For my friends and also myself, hope everything will be just FINE!!!

Take care and ciao...

Jimz Chan

Impermanent

2011-11-12T01:04:00.001+08:00

KITA ADALAH TAMU DI DUNIA.
Kehidupan kita di dunia hanyalah tamu.

Karena tamu maka kehadiran kita hanyalah sementara.
Kaya atau miskin hanyalah sementara.
Segala kejayaan atau kegagalan hanyalah sekian puluh tahun.
Jabatan, kedudukan, popularitas & kemuliaan tidak selamanya.

Tidak ada yg menjadi bapak atau ibu selamanya.
Tidak ada suami atau isteri yg abadi.
Tidak ada presiden atau raja selamanya.
Tidak ada direktur atau manager yg abadi, Sebab kita semua hanya tamu.

Karena tamu, begitu waktunya tiba, kita semua harus beranjak pergi...
Semua harta benda, emas permata, rumah & kendaraan hanyalah pinjaman.
Walaupun semua aset adalah hasil jerih payah keringat kita,
Walaupun kita mempunyai surat kemilikan yg sah & semua harta benda atas nama kita secara hukum,

Namun semuanya hanyalah kemilikan sementara,
Hanyalah pinjaman!!

Karena pinjaman, begitu waktunya tiba, harus dikembalikan.
Semua yg ada di badan kita,
yg terkalung di leher, terselip di jari, yg dikenakan di pergelangan tangan, yg tersimpan di saku, semua harus dikembalikan sama seperti ketika kita belum memilikinya!

"Ketika lahir dua tangan kita kosong, ketika meninggal kedua tangan kita juga kosong..."

Waktu datang kita tidak membawa apa-apa,
Waktu pergi kita juga tidak membawa apa pun

Jangan sombong karena kaya & berkedudukan, jangan minder karena miskin dan hina, bukankah kita semua hanyalah tamu & smua milik kita hanyalah pinjaman !!

TETAPLAH RENDAH HATI seberapapun tinggi kedudukan kita dan
TETAPLAH PERCAYA DIRI seberapapun kekurangan kita... hanya satu kepunyaan kita yang bukan pinjaman yaitu amal perbuatan
so be happy n never 4get to give thanks.

那些年

2011-11-12T00:56:00.000+08:00

又回到最初的起點
記憶中妳青澀的臉
我們終於來到了這一天
桌墊下的老照片
無數回憶連結
今天男孩要赴女孩最後的約

又回到最初的起點
呆呆地站在鏡子前
笨拙繫上紅色領帶的結
將頭髮梳成大人模樣
穿上一身帥氣西裝
等會兒見妳一定比想像美

好想再回到那些年的時光
回到教室座位前後　故意討妳溫柔的罵
黑板上排列組合　妳捨得解開嗎
誰與誰坐他又愛著她

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想擁抱妳　擁抱錯過的勇氣
曾經想征服全世界
到最後回首才發現
這世界滴滴點點全部都是妳

那些年錯過的大雨
那些年錯過的愛情
好想告訴妳　告訴妳我沒有忘記
那天晚上滿天星星
平行時空下的約定
再一次相遇我會緊緊抱著妳
緊緊抱著妳

Youtube link is here!

Happiness

2011-03-09T15:33:00.001+08:00

Suatu ketika istri John Maxwell, pembicara motivator top, Margaret, sedang menjadi pembicara di salah satu sesi seminar tentang "kebahagiaan". Maxwell sang suami duduk di bangku paling depan dan mendengarkan.
Di akhir sesi, semua pengunjung bertepuk tangan dan tiba di sesi tanya jawab. Setelah beberapa pertanyaan, seorang ibu mengacungkan tangannya untuk bertanya.

"Mrs. Margaret, apakah suami Anda membuat Anda bahagia?"

Seluruh ruangan langsung terdiam. Satu pertanyaan yang bagus.
Margaret tampak berpikir beberapa saat dan kemudian menjawab,"Tidak." Seluruh ruangan terkejut. "Tidak," katanya sekali lagi,"John Maxwell tidak bisa membuatku bahagia."

Seisi ruangan langsung menoleh ke arah Maxwell. Maxwell juga menoleh-noleh mencari pintu keluar. Rasanya ingin cepat-cepat keluar.

Kemudian, lanjut Margaret, "John Maxwell adalah seorang suami yg sangat baik. Ia tdk pernah berjudi, mabuk-mabukan, main serong. Ia setia, selalu memenuhi kebutuhan saya, baik jasmani maupun rohani. Tapi, tetap dia tidak bisa membuatku bahagia.."

Tiba-tiba ada suara bertanya,"Mengapa?"

"Karena," Jawabnya, "tidak ada seorang pun di dunia ini yang bertanggung jawab atas kebahagiaanku selain diriku sendiri." Margaret mengatakan, tidak ada orang lain yang bisa membuatmu bahagia.

Baik itu pasangan hidupmu, sahabatmu, uangmu, hobimu. Semua itu tidak bisa membuatmu bahagia. Karena yang bisa membuat dirimu bahagia adalah dirimu sendiri. Kamu bertanggung jawab atas dirimu sendiri.

Kalau kamu sering merasa berkecukupan, tidak pernah punya perasaan minder, selalu percaya diri, kamu tidak akan merasa sedih. Sesungguhnya pola pikir kita yang menentukan apakah kita bahagia atau tidak, bukan faktor luar. Bahagia atau tidaknya hidupmu bukan ditentukan oleh seberapa kaya dirimu, cantik istrimu/gagah suamimu, atau sesukses apa hidupmu.
Bahagia adalah pilihanmu sendiri..

Hi

2011-03-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hi all, its been a while since my last post and honestly, I miss to blog so much. In these 2 months I have a lot of things to shared, a lot of things happened to me for sure, happy and sad things. Its weird because now, I'm here to type it but none of those idea comes out.

In the end I just sit down and read some of my old posts and makes me realize and actually I already answers some of my questions that come to me these few weeks. I hope I can get full answer in anytime soon so I can move forward and not stuck in this pace of life forever.

Gotta go sleep, Nitez all.... by the way I quote one sentence from the post:
"Be honest is not easy, but to be a good liar is completely different story", so do you think so? =)
Nitez..

Jimz Chan

15 Manajement Hidup Manusia

2011-02-21T10:45:00.001+08:00

15 MANAJEMEN HIDUP :

1. MANUSIA yang paling berbahaya adalah “TUKANG GOSSIP”.X_X

2. SENJATA yang paling berbahaya adalah ”LIDAH”.:p

3. KEBIASAAN yang paling merusak adalah ”KUATIR”.:s

4. PERASAAN yang paling tidak berguna adalah ”RENDAH DIRI”.:(

5. KEGAGALAN yang paling melumpuhkan adalah ”ALASAN” yang di ”BUAT - BUAT”.:)

6. KONDISI yang terburuk adalah Jika KITA tidak mempunyai ”HARAPAN”.:>

7. PAKAIAN yang paling indah di dunia adalah ”SENYUMAN”.=))

8. SUKACITA yang terbesar adalah. ”BERDANA”.\=D/

9. PEKERJAAN yang paling memuaskan adalah ”BERBUAT KEBAJIKAN”.({})

10. KOMPUTER yang paling hebat adalah ”PIKIRAN MANUSIA”.(y)

11. ENERGI yang terbesar adalah dorongan ”SEMANGAT HIDUP”.:D

12. OBAT TIDUR yang paling mujarab adalah ”PIKIRAN” yang ”DAMAI”:) .

13. DUA KATA yang penuh kekuatan adalah "SAYA BISA"./:)

14. Aset yang terbesar adalah "KEMULIAAN HATI.<3>

Quick update

2011-01-08T00:57:00.002+08:00

Hi all its been one week since 2011 started, so I should greet you all with HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! Its been a week how are you all? Hope you all have great new year and full list of resolutions for this year. As for me, I have tons of resolution list with me and will try to fulfill every each of them. Another news is I feel so tired, sleepy and unstable lately, a lot of things happened around me, some I just dont know how to react.

I'm too tired now, a lot of things that I want to write but not here I think, so happy new year and may this year will bring more joy, fun and happiness around you all.
Tired so will sleep soon, my eyes is already become one line.

Wan an, cya next post
Take care
Jimz Chan

"Aku adalah Spesial"

2010-12-03T18:27:00.001+08:00

Percaya ato tidak, pas baca ini, gw merasa sangat terharu n terkesan =).

Here we go:

Alkisah, disebuah kelas sekolah dasar, bu guru memulai pelajaran dengan topik bahasan, "Setiap insan adalah spesial". Kehadiran manusia di dunia ini begitu berarti dan penting. "Anak-anakku, kalian, setiap anak adalah penting dan spesial bagi ibu. Semua guru menyayangi dan mengajar kalian karena kalian adalah pribadi yang penting dan spesial. Hari ini ibu khusus membawa stiker bertuliskan warna merah "Aku adalah spesial". Kalian maju satu persatu, ibu akan menempelkan stiker ini di dada sebelah kiri kalian". Dengan tertib anak-anak maju satu persatu untuk menerima stiker dan sebuah kecupan sayang dari bu guru mereka. Setelah selesai, bu guru melanjutkan "Ibu beri kalian masing-masing tambahan 4 stiker. Beri dan tempelkan 1 kepada orang yang kalian anggap spesial, sebagai ungkapan rasa hormat dan terima kasih dan kemudian serahkan 3 stiker lainnya untuk diteruskan kepada orang yang dirasa spesial pula olehnya, begitu seterusnya. Mengerti kan.......".

Sepulang sekolah, seorang murid pria mendatangi sebuah kantor, diapun memberikan stikernya kepada seorang manajer di sana. "Pak, bapak adalah orang yang spesial buat saya. Karena nasehat-nasehatpak berikan, sekarang saya telah menjadi pelajar yang lebih baik dan bertanggung jawab. Ini ada 3 stiker yang sama, bapak bisa melakukan hal yang sama, memberikannya kepada siapapun yang menurut bapak pantas menerimanya".

Lewat beberapa hari, manajer tersebut menemui pimpinan perusahaannya yang emosional dan sulit untuk didekati. Tetapi mempunyai pengetahuan yang luas dan telah memberi banyak pelajaran hingga dia bisa menjadi seperti hari ini. Awalnya sang pemimpin terkesima, namun setelah mengetahui alasan pemberian stiker itu, dia pun menerimanya dengan haru. Sambil mengangsurkan si manajer berkata,"Ini ada 1 stiker yang tersisa. Bapak bisa melakukan yang sama kepada siapapun yang pantas menerima rasa sayang dari bapak". Sesampai di rumah, bergegas ditemui putra tunggalnya. "Anakku, selama ini ayah tidak banyak memberi perhatian kepadamu, meluangkan waktu untuk menemanimu. Maafkan ayahmu yang sering kali marah-marah karena hal-hal sepele yang telah kamu lakukan dan ayah anggap salah. Malam ini, ayah ingin memberi stiker ini dan memberitahu kepadamu bahwa bagi ayah, selain ibumu, kamu adalah yang terpenting dalam hidup ayah. Ayah sayang kepadamu". Setelah kaget sesaat, si anak balas memeluk ayahnya sambil menangis sesenggukan. "Ayah, sebenarnya aku telah berencana telah bunuh diri. Aku merasa hidupku tidak berarti bagi siapapun dan ayah tidak pernah menyayangiku. Terima kasih ayah". Mereka pun berpelukan dalam syukur dan haru serta berjanji untuk saling memperbaiki diri.

Pembaca yang luar biasa,
Kehidupan layaknya seperti pantulan sebuah cermin. Dia akan bereaksi yang sama seperti yang kita lakukan. Begitu pentingnya bisa menghargai dan menempatkan orang lain di tempat yang semestinya. memuji orang lain dengan tulus juga merupakan ilmu hidup yang sehat, bahkan sering kali pujian yang diberikan disaat yang tepat akan memotivasi orang yang dipuji, membuat mereka bertambah maju dan berkembang, dan hubungan diantara kitapun akan semakin harmonis,mari kita mulai dari diri kita sendiri,belajar memberi pujian, menghormati dan memperhatikan orang lain dengan tulus dengan demikian kehidupan kita pasti penuh gairah, damai dan mengembirakan.

Excitement of Life!!!

2010-11-28T22:52:00.003+08:00

Back again, wondering where am I? nope? yes? Anyway, I hope you guys still healthy and always happy =). These two weeks after my graduation, I'm more focus to my job, as web developer I start to get real task under my seniors, I start to go back late from office, which is not really bad things because I have to finish things before the dead line, feel so challenging and excited. I admit that I still far from their level but I believe with effort and determination we can always achieve what we aim for!

I'm not sure how to describe this feeling but suddenly I feel so excited to live my life, I don't know what is waiting for me in this life but I know it will be interesting journey. It starts when I walk home tonight, when I walk alone enjoying the silent night, some thoughts stroke my head, it reminds me how much I miss my family and how lucky I am to be able to live, walking here enjoying the night. Suddenly everything become very light, I feel happier, feel grateful with my current state (have very cool family, girlfriend, friends, job and time for myself), feel how much loves that my parents, friends and people around me gives to me =) I also feel that how much I changed over the years. I agree if people say I'm still not really different from who I am for years before or I change a lot, but deep inside me, I realize how different I am, how much I changed to be better and some worst things.

Honestly I love this feeling, feel that I can experience unlimited excitement about everything in my life, hope I can maintain this feeling. I know I'm still young, and be young is my advantage to have opportunities to learn a lot of things, experience a lot of things and of course be wiser and wiser through the time.

Ok, I'll have my sleep soon, tomorrow is another new day, a lot of things to face with positive mind inside ^^. Before I close this post, I would like to share one quotation that I read a lot of times before:

"It doesn't matter how slow you go, as long as you not stop!!" by Confucius.

Wan an guys, see you again soon.
May all of you be well and happy always =).
Take Care...
Jimz Chan

Graduation and some catch up...

2010-11-15T20:58:00.003+08:00

Hi guys, I'm back with stories in my pocket =). How to start this? Let's start from last week, last Thursday I went to Sunway - Malaysia to attend my convocation/ graduation day on 13th November at Sunway. Seriously this event is in my head for more than 1/2 years already, I just cant wait to meet up with everyone, my family, friends and all sunway people.

First thing that I want to mention is how I miss my family, I miss to meet up, play, have outing together and laugh for whole day, but I'm glad that these 5 days I spent my time with all my family members, yeah 5 of us are laughing for whole week, can you imagine it? I seriously miss the time we discuss about things, joke around and shop =), well since all of us are separated by ocean, time and islands, to have time like this is the happiest time in my life, and now I miss them already, hope we can meet up again soon, and before that I want to thank my family to come to Sunway to attend my convo =).

Second thing is the Graduation day it self, like what I said before, I cant wait for this day since last 1/2 years and now its the time, the day, what I felt? HAPPY!!! EXCITED!!! cant stop smiling and feel very GREAT!!! At this moment, I really want to thank my parents who always support me to get high education and provide me with all of my needs (I know that is not cheap but they gave me anyway, really blessed), give me time to complete my education with a lot of care + loves + supports for my whole life until this time I can say. I love you dad n mom, I hope my graduation can make u guys proud of me (which I believe they do ^^) and I will make them more proud of me in the future. The next person is my big bro, he always there for me, whenever I need his advice, help or even his time to just to listen to my stories or my complains. Thanks a lot bro, I'm really proud of you and feel very lucky to be your bother =). For my little sister, thanks for your care and your help to arrange everything until I arrived, wish the best for you =).

For all my friends, thanks because all of you always be there to support me, to be my friends and have a lot of nice time together, I'm definitely miss you guys, and from bottom of my heart I wish to have more time together with you all, but life must move on, we still can have fun time in the future, I believe that but for now we have to walk separately and I pray for all of you to success in life, career, love, and everything. Thanks guys (miss you guys already) =).

So basically I wanted to thank everybody for everything until now, my family, friends and people around me, THANK YOU GUYS!!!! LOVE N MISS YOU GUYS!!! =).

I'm so tired now, need a lot of sleep before start work again tomorrow, yeah I have job now and I will need to adjust my life to this new life, not used to it but have to be able to live in it. =.= I guess my eyes are like that now, so wan an guys, some catch up will be post after this one.

Wan an and take care.
Jimz Chan with a lot of loves and grateful feeling.
Missing everyone =).

Tertawa dengan Hati =D

2010-11-07T21:50:00.004+08:00

Kita tidak bisa mengontrol cuaca tapi kita bisa mengontrol perasaan kita...

Kita tidak bisa merubah bentuk muka kita tapi kita bisa tersenyum... :)

Kita tidak bisa mengontrol orang lain tapi kita bisa mengontrol diri kita sendiri...

Kita tidak bisa memutuskan berapa lama kita akan hidup tapi kita bisa memutuskan Apa yang ingin kita lakukan dengan hidup kita...

Kita tidak bisa meramalkan hari esok tapi kita bisa mengisi hari ini dengan bijaksana...

Kita tidak bisa memenangkan setiap hal tapi kita bisa mencoba melakukan yg terbaik untuk mencapainya...

2 hal yg mempengaruhi hidup kita :

• TERTAWA =D
Sekali tertawa, pusing kepala hilang.
Dua kali tertawa, benci pun sirna.
Tiga kali tertawa, persoalan lari.
Empat kali tertawa, penyakit cepet sembuh.
Lima kali tertawa, awet muda.
Enam kali tertawa, hati penuh sukacita asal jangan di kira gila.

• HATI <3>
Hati yg gembira adalah obat yg manjur.
Hati yg keras menemui jalan buntu.
Hati yg lembut mendatangkan sahabat.
Hati yg rakus menciptakan perangkap.
Hati yg bersih menjauhkan masalah.
Hati yg licik mendatangkan musuh.

Semoga kita bisa menghadapi kehidupan kita sehari hari dengan sikap Positif & selalu Berbahagia!

Johor trip and Sunday Cooking session

2010-10-31T20:44:00.002+08:00

One day trip to Johor Bahru was happened yesterday, yeah it was one trip. Honestly, that is my first time went to Johor (usually just pass by to Singapore). The trip was fun, buy some food as souvenier from Malaysia. Eventhough I wanted to go to beach at Johor, we dont know where is the beach or how to go there XD. Before that, the member of this trip was Me, Nat and Har, we went there for vacation and to extend nat and har's visa =).

A lot of things happened there, at the way back to Singapore, har and nat was held in the immigration office due to some issues about their visa, but overall nothing happened and it was fun trip =).

Continue to sunday cooking session, yeah my sunday now fill with cooking session, I cook spaghetti bolognese and nata jelly. The spaghetti was success but the jelly I thought is failure but its turn out nice, not too sweet and just fine =) love it but need some improvement and more practice I believe.

Ok now time to off, suddenly I forget everything that I want to share, so lets close it now =)
Take care

Jimz Chan

Working life

2010-10-30T20:28:00.002+08:00

Starting on 18th October 2010, yeah two weeks ago, I start my 1st job (job that according to my field of study). Previously in my old posts you can read that I wanted to get a job as soon as possible, yeah now I get the job already, so how? Ok working life is something new for me, not in term of waking early and go back late but new in term of working style, knowledge and people that you meet at the office. I should explain that my job is not an easy task and require me to really improve myself.

It's been two weeks since I started my job and I realize that I learn a lot from colleague, work environment and especially your boss/ supervisors. I learn about expectation and how if you able or not able to achieve it. In my life I always think about my expectation for my self and usually I feel down or uneasy when I cant meet my own expectation but here at work I'm afraid that I cant meet my supervisors or seniors' expectation. I feel more down and even now nervous whenever I cant meet their expectation, yeah its new things for me, eventhough some of them didn't show it but I just feel uneasy, maybe I think too much.

Be the newest member of the team and at the same time the youngest can make you feel so nervous (at least that's for me =p), I always think that they are my seniors and they know a lot than me, they have the experience, can I keep up with them? Because those thought these few days I try to run as fast as I can to get as much information as I can, learn as much as I can and yeah sometimes make my head almost explode but I know I have to work very hard because its not easy job.

Yeah what I want to say is, I'm so excited to get my job and want to learn a lot, do a lot of things and be part of the teams of course. I'm so glad that I get the job, and even though working life will not be the same as university or high school life, I'll keep up and adapt with that so I can enjoy my life. By the way I get my first paycheck already, feel so proud and happy, too bad still not the time to treat you guys eat XD, maybe next time? let's see =).

Ok Night already, I'll have to sleep, cant sleep too late anymore, my body cant handle it I think, so have a healthy life now (sleep early and wake early too).
P.S. too sleepy so I cant really tell what I type and hope you guys understand the post ;).

Take care
Jimz Chan

Caramel Pudding

2010-10-24T21:09:00.006+08:00

Yow guys, it's been a week since I start my job as associate web developer, well all I can say is all the things are still new for me and I already make some friends there, they are so nice and I think I can grow more in this software house =). So after working for 5 days a week what we do usually? There are a lot of things that I wanted to do such as play table tennis, jogging, gym, rest at home and suddenly I want to learn culinary, yeah baking, cooking and eating of course XD.

So yesterday when go out with my girlfriend, I bought few things with me to make caramel pudding, yeah I saw few of the flavor and decided to choose caramel pudding, my gf choose black sesame flavor. So actually this is my first time making this pudding, so I think the shape and flavor is still too sweet and not really fit with my imagination but yeah practice make us better and as beginner I like it ^^. Here I provide the picture of my caramel pudding, and I will try to make this activity regular every week if I have nothing to do =). Hope I can improve in the future, so enjoy~~.

Caramel Pudding

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Simple love story

2010-10-14T19:54:00.000+08:00

Suatu hari sepasang kekasih yg saling mencintai itu menikah….

Mereka sangat bahagia….tetapi selang sebulan setelah pernikahan itu kebiasaan buruk dari masing-masing mulai terlihat…

Akhirnya mereka membuat kesepakatan atau komitmen…tepatnya di sebuah ruang keluarga…mereka duduk berhadap-hadapan…dan mulailah percakapan itu…

Percakapan dimulai dari perkataan sang istri…sedangkan sang suami mendengarkan baik-baik…

Istri: “Sayang aku ga mau nantinya kita ribut dan berakhir perceraian sebelum itu terjadi…aku mau kamu menulis kebisaan buruk aku yg ga kamu sukai…dan sebaliknya juga aku, aku akan menulis kebiasaan buruk kamu yg ga aku sukai…gimana sayang?”

Suami: “Oke….aku setuju…”

Mulailah mereka menulis….si istri langsung menulis di kertas…dengan cepat dan seksama…tak berapa lama si istri sudah menulis sepertinya ada 5 atau 7 nomor sedangkan si suami hanya bisa melihat dan belum memulai menulis satu kalimat bahkan satu kata pun tidak…

Istri: “Aku sudah selesai..kamu??”

Suami (dengan tersenyum): “Aku juga sudah selesai…”

Istri: “Kalau gitu kamu yg baca duluan…”

Suami: “Tidak-tidak…kamu duluan yg membaca…”

Istri : “Ok, aku dulu yg membaca…tapi aku harap kamu jangan tersinggung ya sayang…”

(si istri mulai membaca)

“Satu, aku ga suka kamu ngorok atau ngigau di saat kita tidur bersama…”

Mendengar hal itu si suami tidak lagi menatap wajah si istri, pandanganya mulai kemana-mana.

(si istri melanjutkan)

Istri: “Dua, kamu tuh ga bisa rapi…baju kotor entah kamu taruh sembarangan dimana-mana…aku sudah bilang kan baju kotor langsung ditaruh di tempat pakaian kotor…”

Mendengar perkataan si istri yangg ke dua, si suami menundukkan kepala…

Berlanjut si istri membaca yang ketiga hingga nomor enam, si suami terdiam dan menggenangkan air mata…

Si istri melihat: “Sayang kamu ga papa kan??”

Si suami hanya menggelengkan kepala dan tersenyum…

Istri: “Baiklah aku lanjutkan lagi…”

(si istri membaca yg terakhir)

Istri : “Kalau kamu…seperti apa yg kamu tulis di kertas itu…coba bacakan…”

Suami : (menggelengkan kepala…dan memperlihatkan kertas kepada istrinya)
“aku tidak menuliskan apapun..karena bagiku..tak ada satupun keburukan dari sikap kamu, sayang…aku mencintai kamu apa adanya dan cinta yang apa adanya itu tidak menuntut seseorang untuk mengubah kebiasaannya…karena itulah cinta…berbeda dan saling melengkapi…”

Mendengar hal itu si istri menangis dan memeluk suaminya…dan berkata,

Istri: “Maafkan aku…”

Suami: “Sebelum kamu minta maaf…aku sudah memaafkan mu…”

Source: Kaskus

Jimz Chan

Poverty

2010-10-12T13:46:00.003+08:00

I found this story is very unique n interesting. =)

One day a father of a very wealthy family took his son on a trip to the country with the firm purpose of showing his son how poor people live.
They spent a couple of days and nights on the farm of what would be considered a very poor family.
On their return from their trip, the father asked his son, "How was the trip?"
" It was great, Dad."
"Did you see how poor people live?" the father asked.
"Oh yeah," said the son.
"So, tell me, what did you learn from the trip?" asked the father.

The son answered: "I saw that we have one dog and they had four. We have a pool that reaches to the middle of our garden and they have a creek that has no end. We have imported lanterns in our garden and they have the stars at night. Our patio reaches to the front yard and they have the whole horizon. We have a small piece of land to live on and they have fields that go beyond our sight. We have servants who serve us, but they serve others. We buy our food, but they grow theirs. We have walls around our property to protect us, they have friends to protect them."

The boy's father was speechless.
Then his son added, "Thanks, Dad, for showing me how poor we are."

adopted from: Heart Story

Jimz Chan
Take Care

Pre working life...

2010-10-05T11:38:00.003+08:00

Hi guys I'm back with another news of my life =). So these few days I have nothing to do waiting for my health check and S-Pass application, I thought I will start working this week but everything is change because the company told me that I will start on 18 which two weeks from now. That is one good news at least I'm employed but the problem is with my tourist visa which will expired on 10th, yeah 5 more days... I'm not sure what to do, confuse? yes, pressure? not really but yes, need advice? definitely!! So I called the company and tell them the situation, but too bad I have to wait another day to get the confirmation of everything.

So there are few options here, first, I will get the news about my S-Pass collection on 7th or 8th (in this case, this will be the best case). Second, I will have to collect it someday next week, which means have to go out from Singapore either to Batam, back hometown or Malaysia depends on the situation and my parents of coz. Third is same situation with second but instead of out from Singapore, I can try to extend the length of stay, not sure it will works though... (as my friend Hartanto got rejected last time >.<). Well for now that's all of the options that I can think about, maybe I can find another solution.

Yeah that is what I face currently, but before that I faced a lot too =) yeah this is life, a lot of things happened just how you face it is the matter here.

A lot of things happened in this pre working time, before, I never imagine how hard to find a job, especially when I look at my friends that struggling with their mind everyday to fight the pressure of jobless, I hope they can get the job very quick soon. Now I know how hard is a job life and I know I have to face it =).

There are some stories that I want to share with you all but let's keep it for next post =)
Take Care

Jimz Chan

Forgive, Forgiving and Forgiven...

2010-09-29T00:04:00.002+08:00

As human, we can never run from mistakes. To deal with those mistakes we can try to forgive, forgive all people and our self for all the mistakes that we have done. Forgiving people is one thing, many people have learned to forgive the mistakes that people did to us. I wont say that is easy but most of people can handle it and in the end forgive that particular people. Some people will face the problem to forgive themselves because what they did.

Have you ever feeling down in deep regret for something that you've done? You know the only thing that you can do it try to forgive yourself, learn from the mistakes and let it go. But sometimes it feels so hard to be done, some people can forgive other easily but not him/herself, or some people can always forgive themselves easily but not others.

The question is how you forgive yourself? How to make your mind at ease and know that you've learn from the mistakes, and in the end can forgive yourself and let it go? When someone did something very wrong, that person will haunted by his/her illusion about that past mistakes, how to forgive such feeling? How to feel peace? There are few numbers of answers that I have but how bout you? What will you do??

Take Care
Jimz Chan

3 Simple thoughts from me =)

2010-09-09T16:05:00.003+08:00

"Something's wrong" will always better than "Nothing's right!!"

You will feel better when "Enough" is just "Enough!!"

When life is heavy, just wider your "SMILE"

Always Smile!!! This life is not that hard when you know what is right/wrong and think enough. =)

Interviews and Tests

2010-09-03T21:00:00.003+08:00

Life away from home is always difficult especially when we want to find a job or study, eventhough study will be much more active than searching for job. Its been approximately 23 days I'm living in Singapore, one thing that I face is the distance, even with MRT, distance and time is not really happy for each other =).

So apps 3 weeks here and I already do 3 tests and 1 interview, I'm not sure but all the tests are so difficult coz I almost forget everything from Uni, so I have to study everything again by myself, but afraid not because I CAN DO IT!!!

My life is busy with study, tests and searching for jobs currently and it makes me forget about my blogs and emails. I think I have to manage my own time again here, coz everything is kinda new for me, Jiayou Jimz!!

Here is a bit off from topic, but I really miss my guitar, wanna learn everything from basic again, I wonder when I can bring my guitar to Singapore =), can wait...

Ok short update, actually have nothing to write but wanna type as oways... cao..
Take Care

Jimz Chan wif Big Smile =)

Kiss the rain Lyrics - Yiruma

2010-08-30T21:25:00.000+08:00

(I’ll always love you…)
I often close my eyes
And I can see you smile
You reach out for my hand
And I’m woken from my fream
Although your heart is mine
Its hollow inside
I never had your love
And never will

And every night
I lie awake
Thinking maybe you love me
Like I’ve always loved you
But how can you love me
Like I loved you when you can’t even look me
Straight in my eyes

I’ve never felt this way
To be so in love
To have someone there
Yet feel so alone
Aren’t you supposed to be?
The one to wipe my tears
The one to say that you
Would never leave

The waters calm and still
My reflection is there
I see you holding me
But then you disappear
All that is left of you
Is a memory
Ne that only, exist in my dreams

I don’t know what hurts you
But I can feel it too
And it just hurts so much
To know that I cant do a thing
And deep down in my heart
Somehow I just know
That no matter what
I’ll always love you

So why am I still here in the rain…

mid night oil??

2010-08-26T02:54:00.004+08:00

Hi guys, sorry for long hiatus mode which kinda long *for me*, currently I'm in Singapore, maybe some of u already know it or some of u maybe not. So what am I doing here? of coz looking for jobs, now after graduate from Monash (July, 2010) I feel that I have to find a job as soon as possible. Actually I have a lot of choices but I made up my mind to find a job and life at Singapore for a moment.

Looking for job is one tough period, since I arrived at Singapore (11/08/10), I've sent a lot of resumes to various companies here, and I got my first test interview (not interview but more like entrance test) on 19/08. The test was so hard and one NTU student said to me that was the hardest entrance test he face so far, yeah I feel that way too =P, and final result for my 1st test is rejected. I feel sad of course, becoz I feel eventhough the test was hard I can somehow do it, but maybe not my job so let it go, next target!!

Now my second test is on going since 2 days ago, yeah since 2 days ago.... my current test is online test where I have to solve various problems and internet websites programming. My current test duration is 3 days, yeah must finish it before third day over.... The test is damn hard and so far I only managed to answer half of the questions, the other half is something that I never learn before. Looking everywhere from websites, internet, until books at Singapore National Library for hints but I barely find it there... maybe bcoz I'm not sure what I'm looking inside those books =S.

Tired, and yeah that's my stories up till now, planning to start my regular activities with blogs again, so wait for my next update... hopefully wont be long and wish me all the lucks to find a job here at Singapore.

Wish all jobless friends find their dream jobs soon =P
Take Care

Jimz Chan with Smile and test problems =P

New Post, New Album and New Life =)

2010-08-15T11:28:00.002+08:00

After hibernating long enough, I'm back!!! in Singapore, a lot of things happened and will tell u shortly in my next post (hopefully =P). But today I'm here to post new song from Lee Hom Wang, I love this song coz its so simple yet so meaningful. enjoy the lyrics guys =) and for the song u can download or listen from youtube with title "Lee Hom - Chai Mi You Yan Jiang Cu Cha (王力宏 - 柴米油鹽醬醋茶)"

Here the lyrics in english translation:

When you were young, what did you want

I wanted a large blue airplane

To take me around the world

To every corner of the earth

Going back and forth among the white clouds in the blue sky

And after I grew up, what did I want

I wanted a tiny red answering machine

To record together with you

Hello, we are not home right now

The blue turned into red because of you

Firewood, rice, oil, salt, paste, vinegar, tea

Every single drop is happiness sprouting

The crescent moon shines over love's foolishness

I lack nothing when I have you

Providing you with happiness whether it's day or night

Grasping both hands tightly even if it's windy and rainy

I just want you

Want you to stay by my side

Protecting you eternally

The crescent moon shines over love's foolishness

There is no reason

To live so complicated

I lack nothing when I have you

See ya at next post

Jimz Chan with smile

On Making Mistakes by Ajahn Brahm

2010-07-05T12:41:00.000+08:00

On Making a Mistake
Oleh : Ajahn Brahm

Di dalam kehidupan kita ini, kita sering lupa bahwa melakukan kesalahan bukanlah suatu hal yang besar. Di dalam agama Buddha, tidak apa-apa untuk melakukan kesalahan. Tidak apa-apa untuk menjadi tidak sempurna. Menakjubkan bukan? Ini artinya kita memiliki kebebasan untuk menjadi seorang manusia, daripada menganggap diri kita sebagai seseorang yang hebat dan besar yang tak pernah melakukan kesalahan. Mengerikan bukan, jika kita berpikir bahwa kita tidak diijinkan untuk melakukan kesalahan, karena kita memang melakukan kesalahan, lalu kita harus bersembunyi dan mencoba untuk menutupinya. Jadi, rumah bukan lagi menjadi suatu tempat yang damai dan tenang dan menyenangkan. Tentu saja kebanyakan orang yang skeptis akan berkata: “Okelah, jika anda mengijinkan orang-orang untuk melakukan kesalahan, bagaimana mereka akan pernah belajar? Mereka bahkan hanya akan terus-menerus melakukan lebih banyak kesalahan lagi”. Tetapi itu bukanlah cara kerjanya yang sebenarnya. Untuk menggambarkan hal ini, ketika saya masih seorang remaja, ayah saya berkata kepada saya bahwa dia tidak akan pernah mengusir saya keluar atau menutup pintu rumahnya bagi saya, apa pun yang saya lakukan; saya akan selalu diijinkan untuk tinggal di sana, bahkan jika saya telah melakukan kesalahan yang paling besar sekalipun. Ketika saya mendengar itu, saya memahaminya sebagai suatu ungkapan kasih sayang, dari penerimaan. Itu menginspirasi saya dan saya begitu menghormatinya sehingga saya tidak ingin menyakitinya, saya tidak ingin mempersulitnya, dan oleh karena itu saya pun mencoba jauh lebih keras lagi untuk menjadi orang yang berharga baginya.

Sekarang, jika kita bisa mencobanya terhadap orang-orang yang tinggal dan hidup bersama kita, kita akan melihat bahwa itu memberikan mereka kebebasan dan kesempatan untuk rileks dan menjadi damai, dan ia meredakan semua ketegangan. Di dalam kelegaan itu, muncullah rasa hormat dan kepedulian terhadap orang lain. Jadi, saya menantang anda untuk mencoba mengijinkan orang-orang untuk melakukan kesalahan – untuk berkata kepada pasangan hidup anda, orangtua anda dan anak-anak anda: “Pintu rumahku akan selalu terbuka bagimu; pintu hatiku akan selalu terbuka bagimu, tak peduli apapun yang kamu lakukan.” Katakan juga pada diri anda sendiri: “Pintu rumahku selalu terbuka untukku.” Ijinkan diri anda untuk melakukan kesalahan juga. Dapatkah anda mengingat semua kesalahan yang telah anda lakukan pada minggu yang lalu? Bisakah anda membiarkannya, bisakah anda tetap menjadi teman bagi diri anda sendiri? Hanya ketika kita mengijinkan diri kita sendiri untuk melakukan kesalahan sajalah, maka pada akhirnya kita bisa menjadi tenang.

Itulah yang kita maksud dengan mengasihi, dengan metta, dengan cinta kasih. Ia harus tanpa syarat. Jika anda menyayangi seseorang hanya karena mereka melakukan apa yang anda suka, atau karena mereka selalu memenuhi harapan anda, maka tentu saja cinta seperti itu tidak begitu berharga. Itu seperti cinta bisnis: “Aku akan mencintaimu jika kamu memberikan aku sesuatu sebagai gantinya.”

Ketika pertama kali saya menjadi bhikkhu, saya berpikir bahwa bhikkhu haruslah sempurna. Saya pikir mereka seharusnya tidak boleh melakukan kesalahan; bahwa ketika mereka duduk bermeditasi, mereka harus selalu duduk dengan tegak. Tetapi bagi anda-anda yang pernah duduk bermeditasi pada jam 4:30 pagi, terlebih setelah bekerja keras sehari sebelumnya, anda akan tahu bahwa anda bisa saja menjadi lelah; tubuh anda menjadi miring, kepala anda bahkan bisa tertunduk. Tetapi itu tidak apa-apa. Tidak apa-apa untuk melakukan kesalahan. Dapatkah anda merasakan kelegaannya, bagaimana semua ketegangan dan tekanan menjadi hilang begitu anda mengijinkan diri anda untuk membuat kesalahan?
Masalahnya adalah kita cenderung membesar-besarkan kesalahan dan melupakan keberhasilan, yang menimbulkan begitu besar beban kesalahan yang harus ditanggung. Jadi sebaliknya kita bisa beralih kepada keberhasilan kita, hal-hal baik yang telah kita perbuat di dalam kehidupan kita; kita bisa menyebutnya sifat Buddha di dalam diri kita. Jika anda beralih kepadanya, ia akan berkembang; dan jika anda berpaling kepada kesalahan, mereka pun akan berkembang. Jika anda merenungkan bentuk-bentuk pikiran apa pun di dalam batin, latihan pikiran apa pun itu, ia akan berkembang dan berkembang, benar bukan? Jadi, kita mengalihkan hati kita dan merenungkan hal-hal yang positif pada diri kita, kemurnian, kebaikan, sumber dari cinta kasih tanpa syarat – yang ingin menolong, mengorbankan bahkan kesenangan diri kita sendiri untuk makhluk lain. Inilah cara kita untuk memperhatikan bagian dalam diri kita, hati kita. Memaafkan kesalahannya, kita merenungkan kemuliaannya, kemurniannya, kebaikannya. Kita bisa melakukan hal yang sama kepada orang lain, kita bisa merenungkan kebaikan-kebaikan mereka dan memperhatikannya tumbuh berkembang.

Inilah yang kita sebut karma – perbuatan; cara kita berpikir tentang kehidupan, cara kita berbicara tentang kehidupan, apa yang kita lakukan dengan kehidupan. Dan, memang benar, itu semua tergantung pada kita apapun yang kita lakukan, ia tidak tergantung pada makhluk-makhluk supranatural di atas sana yang menentukan apakah anda akan bahagia atau tidak. Kebahagiaan anda sepenuhnya berada di tangan anda, di dalam kekuasaan anda. Inilah yang kita maksud dengan karma. Ia seperti membuat kue: karma menentukan bahan baku apa yang anda miliki, apa yang harus anda pergunakan. Jadi, seseorang dengan karma yang tidak menguntungkan, mungkin sebagai akibat dari perbuatan-perbuatan mereka di masa lampau, tidak memiliki banyak bahan baku. Mungkin mereka hanya memiliki sejumlah tepung yang sudah keras, satu atau dua kismis, jika ada, dan mentega yang sudah amis, dan – apa lagi untuk membuat kue? - sejumlah gula... dan hanya itu saja yang mereka miliki. Dan seseorang yang lain mungkin memiliki karma yang sangat bagus, segala bahan baku yang bisa anda mimpikan: segala macam tepung gandum, gula merah dan semua jenis buah-buahan kering dan kacang-kacangan. Tetapi, kue yang dihasilkan pada akhirnya... Bahkan dengan bahan baku yang begitu minim, beberapa orang bisa membuat kue yang bagus. Mereka mencampurkan semuanya, memasukkannya ke dalam oven – lezatnya! Bagaimana mereka melakukannya? Dan kemudian orang lain mungkin memiliki segalanya, tetapi kue yang mereka buat sangat tidak enak.

Jadi, karma menentukan bahan bakunya, apa saja yang kita miliki; tetapi ia tidak menentukan apa yang bisa kita buat dari bahan baku tersebut. Jadi, jika seseorang itu bijaksana, tidak peduli apa yang mereka miliki. Anda tetap saja bisa membuat kue yang bagus – selama anda mengetahui bagaimana cara membuatnya.

Tentu saja, hal pertama yang perlu diketahui adalah bahwa cara yang tidak efektif untuk membuat kue yang bagus adalah dengan mengeluh setiap saat tentang bahan baku yang anda miliki. Kadang-kadang di vihara, jika bahan baku yang diperlukan tidak ada, orang-orang yang memasak akan mencarinya di lemari makan dan memakai apa saja yang bisa ditemukan di sana. Mereka harus fleksibel dan anda akan mendapatkan beberapa jenis kue yang sangat aneh, tetapi semuanya lezat, karena orang-orang telah mempelajari seni untuk memanfaatkan apa pun yang mereka miliki dan membuat sesuatu darinya.

Jadi, ke mana karma itu menuju? Apa yang sebenarnya kita hasilkan darinya? Apakah untuk menjadi kaya atau memiliki kekuasaan? Tidak. Meditasi ini, agama Buddha ini, arah yang kita tuju, adalah untuk mencapai pencerahan. Kita mempergunakan bahan baku yang kita miliki untuk menjadi tercerahkan. Tetapi apa sebenarnya yang dimaksud dengan pencerahan? Pencerahan artinya tidak ada lagi kemarahan yang tinggal di dalam hati anda. Tidak ada lagi keinginan pribadi atau khayalan yang tinggal di dalam hati anda.

Pada suatu masa, ada seorang guru dari Rusia yang bernama Gurdjief yang memiliki kelompok kehidupan sendiri di Perancis. Di dalam kelompoknya, ada seorang pengikut yang selalu membikin kekacauan. Dia selalu mengganggu orang-orang dan membuat mereka tidak nyaman. Jadi, para anggota kelompok yang lain bermaksud untuk secara bersama-sama meminta Gurdjief untuk mengirimnya pergi, untuk mengusirnya, karena dia selalu berdebat dan membuat orang-orang tidak senang. Namun Gurdjief tidak mau. Tetapi belakangan, setelah Gurdjief meninggal dunia, mereka baru mengetahui bahwa ternyata Gurdjief sendirilah yang membayar orang tersebut untuk tinggal di sana! Setiap orang harus membayar sejumlah biaya untuk tinggal di sana. Tetapi Gurdjief malah membayar orang tersebut untuk tinggal di sana – untuk memberi suatu pelajaran pada orang-orang. Jika anda hanya bisa bahagia ketika tinggal dengan orang-orang yang anda sukai, kebahagiaan anda menjadi tidak berharga, karena anda tidak diuji. Sama seperti segelas air yang berlumpur, bila ia tidak diguncang, kelihatannya jernih bukan? Tetapi begitu ia digoyang-goyang, lumpur akan bergerak dari dasar dan muncul ke permukaan. Adalah hal yang bagus untuk menggoyang-goyang gelas anda hanya untuk melihat apa sebenarnya yang ada di dalamnya. Jadi, Gurdjief membayar si pembuat keributan ini untuk menguji setiap orang untuk melihat apa sebenarnya yang ada di sana.

Indikator yang sangat bagus untuk menunjukkan tingkatan seseorang dalam kehidupan spiritualnya adalah dengan melihat sampai di mana anda bisa berhubungan baik dengan orang lain – terutama dengan orang-orang yang sulit untuk dihadapi. Dapatkah anda tetap damai ketika seseorang menyulitkan anda? Sanggupkah anda melepaskan kemarahan dan sakit hati terhadap seseorang, suatu tempat, atau terhadap diri anda sendiri? Pada akhirnya kita memang harus, atau kita tidak akan pernah mencapai pencerahan, kita tidak akan pernah mendapatkan kedamaian.

Bayangkan bagaimana rasanya untuk mengatakan: "Takkan pernah lagi saya akan sakit hati, takkan pernah lagi saya akan melawan atau menolak seseorang atau tingkah laku mereka. Jika saya tidak dapat melakukan apa pun terhadapnya, saya akan belajar untuk hidup berdampingan secara damai dengan apa yang tidak saya sukai. Saya akan belajar untuk secara damai menerima rasa sakit, daripada selalu memalingkan wajah saya dari rasa sakit dan mencari kesenangan." Bayangkan itu!

Kadang-kadang orang berpikir jika anda tidak marah maka anda hanyalah sayur-sayuran, anda hanya mengijinkan pihak lain untuk melangkahi anda, anda akan menjadi seseorang yang duduk di sini dan tidak melakukan apa pun. Tetapi tanyakan pada diri anda sendiri: "Apa yang anda rasakan setelah anda selesai marah? Apakah anda merasa penuh semangat, sangat bertenaga?" Kita menjadi lelah ketika kita marah; ia hanya menghabiskan begitu banyak energi di hati kita. Bahkan bila kita merasa sakit hati atau negatif terhadap seseorang atau suatu tempat, itu akan menghabiskan energi. Jadi, jika kita tidak ingin merasa begitu lelah dan tertekan, kita bisa mencoba, sebagai eksperimen, untuk jangan merasa sakit hati. Perhatikanlah bagaimana jauh lebih tinggi kesadaran dan semangat yang kita rasakan. Lalu kita bisa mengirimkan energi keluar untuk peduli terhadap orang lain, dan untuk peduli terhadap diri kita sendiri juga. Ia sepenuhnya berada di dalam kekuasaan kita untuk melakukannya. Jika anda benar-benar ingin berada pada jalur cepat menuju pencerahan, cobalah untuk melepaskan rasa sakit hati dan kemarahan.

Jadi, bagaimanakah anda melepaskannya? Pertama-tama, dengan menginginkan untuk melepaskannya. Tetapi kebanyakan dari kita tidak ingin melepaskan kemarahan dan sakit hati kita – untuk beberapa alasan yang tidak jelas, kita malah menyukainya. Ada sebuah cerita kecil yang sangat bagus tentang dua orang bhikkhu yang tinggal bersama-sama di sebuah vihara selama bertahun-tahun; mereka adalah sahabat baik. Kemudian mereka masing-masing meninggal dunia hanya selang beberapa bulan saja di antaranya. Salah seorang di antara mereka terlahir kembali di alam surga, bhikkhu yang lain dilahirkan kembali sebagai seekor cacing dalam tumpukan kotoran. Bhikkhu yang berada di alam surga melewati saat-saat yang menyenangkan, menikmati semua kesenangan surgawi. Lalu dia mulai teringat akan sahabatnya, "Saya penasaran ke mana sahabat lama saya pergi?" Jadi, dia menelusuri ke semua alam surga, tetapi dia tidak dapat menemukan jejak temannya tersebut. Kemudian dia mencari-cari di alam manusia, tetapi dia juga tidak dapat menemukan jejak sang sahabat di sana, jadi dia pun melihat ke alam binatang dan selanjutnya ke alam serangga. Akhirnya dia menemukannya, dilahirkan kembali sebagai cacing dalam tumpukan kotoran... Wah! Dia berpikir: "Saya akan menolong sahabat saya. Saya akan turun ke bawah sana ke dalam tumpukan kotoran itu dan mengangkat dia ke alam surga, sehingga dia juga bisa menikmati kesenangan surgawi dan kehidupan bahagia di alam yang menyenangkan ini."

Jadi, dia turun ke bawah menuju ke tumpukan kotoran itu dan memanggil temannya. Dan si cacing kecil itu merayap keluar dan berkata: "Siapa kamu?". "Saya adalah temanmu. Kita sama-sama pernah menjadi bhikkhu di kehidupan kita yang terdahulu, dan saya datang untuk membawamu ke alam surga di mana kehidupan begitu indah dan bahagia." Tetapi si cacing berkata: "Pergi sana, enyah!" "Tetapi saya adalah sahabatmu, dan saya tinggal di alam surga," dan dia pun menjelaskan secara rinci tentang alam surga kepadanya. Tetapi si cacing berkata: "Tidak, terima kasih, saya cukup bahagia di sini di dalam kotoran saya ini. Tolong pergi saja." Kemudian sang makhluk surgawi tersebut berpikir: "Jikalau saya bisa memegangnya dan menariknya ke alam surga, dia akan menyaksikan dengan mata kepalanya sendiri." Jadi dia pun memegang si cacing dan mulai menariknya; dan semakin kuat dia menarik, semakin kuat pula si cacing bertahan di dalam tumpukan kotoran.

Apakah anda memahami pesan moral dari cerita ini? Berapa banyak dari kita yang melekat pada tumpukan kotoran kita. Ketika seseorang mencoba menarik kita keluar, kita malah menyusup kembali ke dalam karena itulah kebiasaan kita, kita senang berada di sana. Kadang-kadang kita sebenarnya melekat pada kebiasaan lama kita, kemarahan kita dan nafsu keinginan kita. Kadang-kadang kita ingin marah.

Jadi, lain kali jika anda marah, berhenti dan perhatikanlah. Ambillah sedikit waktu untuk melihat dengan penuh perhatian, apa yang anda rasakan. Tegaskan, ingatkan diri anda: "Lain kali jika aku marah, aku akan merasakannya, daripada mencoba sok pintar, untuk memaksakan kehendakku sendiri atau untuk menyakiti orang lain." Perhatikan saja bagaimana rasanya. Begitu anda memperhatikan bagaimana rasanya kemarahan itu dengan hati anda – bukan dengan kepala anda – maka akan ada keinginan untuk melepaskannya; karena ia sungguh menyakitkan, ia adalah penderitaan.

Jika saja orang-orang bisa lebih sadar, lebih sadar – mengetahui bagaimana rasanya, daripada memikirkannya, maka tidak akan ada masalah lagi. Mereka akan melepaskan kemarahan itu pergi dengan sangat cepat karena ia begitu panas, ia membakar. Tetapi kita cenderung melihat dunia ini dengan kepala kita daripada dengan hati kita. Kita memikirkannya, tetapi sangat jarang sekali kita merasakannya, mengalaminya. Meditasi mulai menghubungkan anda dengan hati anda lagi: dan untuk lepas dari berpikir dan berkeluh kesah, di mana semua kemarahan dan nafsu keinginan muncul.

Bila anda datang dari hati, anda dapat merasakannya sendiri, anda bisa berdamai dengan diri anda sendiri, anda bisa peduli dengan diri anda sendiri. Bila saya datang dari hati, saya juga bisa menghargai hati orang lain pula. Begitulah caranya kita mencintai musuh-musuh kita, ketika kita menghargai hati mereka, melihat sesuatu untuk dicintai di sana, untuk dihormati.

Orang-orang menjadi marah karena mereka terluka, mereka tidak tenang. Tetapi jika kita bahagia, kita tidak akan pernah marah kepada orang lain; hanya jika kita merasa tertekan, lelah, frustrasi, mengalami saat-saat yang sulit; ketika kita merasa sakit di dalam hati kita, pada saat itulah kita bisa marah kepada orang lain. Jadi, ketika seseorang marah pada saya, saya merasa kasihan dan simpati terhadap orang tersebut, karena saya menyadari bahwa mereka terluka.

Pertama kali saya pergi mengunjungi seseorang yang dianggap sudah tercerahkan, saya berpikir, "Waduh! Saya lebih baik memastikan diri untuk bermeditasi terlebih dahulu sebelum saya sudah berada dalam jarak sepuluh mil darinya, karena dia pasti akan bisa membaca pikiran saya, dan itu akan menjadi sesuatu yang sangat memalukan!" Tetapi seseorang yang telah tercerahkan tidak akan berbuat jahat dan menyakiti anda. Seseorang yang telah tercerahkan akan menerima anda dan menenangkan anda. Itu adalah suatu perasaan yang menakjubkan, bukan? Hanya dengan menerima diri anda sendiri. Anda bisa rileks saja, tanpa kemarahan dan sakit hati. Di sana ada pemahaman yang luar biasa, pencerahan yang luar biasa, bahwa anda baik-baik saja. Begitu banyak penderitaan yang akan dibebaskan dari kehidupan umat manusia; begitu besar kebebasan yang akan diberikan kepada orang-orang untuk berpartisipasi di dunia, untuk melayani di dunia ini, untuk mencintai di dunia ini, ketika pada akhirnya mereka menyadari bahwa mereka baik-baik saja. Mereka tidak perlu menghabiskan begitu banyak waktu untuk menjadikan diri mereka baik, merubah diri mereka, selalu takut membuat kesalahan. Bila anda merasa damai dengan diri anda sendiri, anda pun akan merasa damai dengan orang lain, tidak peduli siapa pun mereka. ***

* Ajahn Brahmavamso adalah Kepala Vihara Bodhinyana di Australia Barat. Artikel Dhamma ini disadur dari sebuah ceramah yang beliau berikan di Dhammaloka Centre di Perth pada tahun 1990

Sumber : "On Making A Mistake" (http://www.forestsangha.org/)

Learning

2010-07-05T00:55:00.004+08:00

Today I feel and thought a lot and trough a lot of things, positive and negatives feeling. I learn that I'm still far from what I wanted to be, still weak, childish, not discipline and a lot of things that I think that I need to change.

Learning is part of human, and it goes forever until one person no longer have the ability to think and learn. I wish I can change all my negative thought, attitudes and a lot of negatives things inside me and replace them with something more positives.

Ok now I have to sleep since my head screaming to me to sleep... yeah my headache is killing me, and because of that I realize that how negative I am, thanks headache to teach me a lot of things today, but I want you to disappear tomorrow =)

Wan an n Take Care
Jimz With Metta

Its just Temporary...

2010-07-02T15:00:00.003+08:00

Farewell is such a strong word, it has a lot of feelings inside that can move one heart and cause tears to flow like ocean. These few days me and my group "Chicken D'Gondelz" are preparing ourselves to face this word. Since this semester is the last semester for most of us, all of us gonna trough our own path from now on, maybe together for some, and maybe separate for others.

Honestly I just cant believe that 4 years is just so fast, time is just fly trough all of us without letting us realize, like a blink of eyes. I hate time when all of us have to go separate ways, hate when I thought I will be fine and still have time with my friends, but the word farewell just there, waiting for me to pass it trough... So yesterday me, Farid, Edie, Har, Nat, Mon, Ameq, Ann, Vero, Colin, Vina and Fimtan do our farewell ceremony together, this ceremony is just for temporary and I know that all of us will meet again someday in the future, I believe that =). I hope all of us can sit on circle and talk, and play again like yesterday...

Yesterday honestly I can't tell you all how much I love you all, I want to thank everyone of you for teaching, care and lead me to the right way, so I'm not lost and can have another family like you all here... I found that a lot of them are crying yesterday but I just cant bring my self to cry, I wonder why =P but deep inside my heart I know I feel very sad... >.<

Anyway we must be strong, for all my friends especially D'Gondelz, Thanks for everything and let this temporary separation make us to be more mature and strong till the time we meet again =)

"I Love Chicken D'Gondelz and I'm gonna Miss you all =)"

Take care guys...
Jimz Chan With Love =)

Quick update =)

2010-06-29T07:27:00.003+08:00

Hi guys back with me again, I just realize that I have abandon my blog for quiet sometimes, not because I'm lazy or have nothing to type but because lack of time and internet, yeah I have problems with internet these few days. Currently I'm in Singapore, to be more specific in McDonald waiting for aeroline at 8.30 to depart back to Malaysia-Sunway area.

Why suddenly I'm in Singapore? Basically I have no idea why I can end up here =), just enjoying my holiday which start from 22 night and waiting for my result to published at 15 on next month. So I start my journey to the south on 24 last week and have a lot of fun with Hartanto, Devi, Julie, Nella and some other friends, thanks guys, I had a lot of fun =). Now I just cant wait to back to Sunway, a lot of things to be done and I miss her so much ^^.

So here I m, waiting at McDonald with H42, yeah we will be back soon, Sunway just wait for us =). Ok before it goes too long I will stop here, a lot of updates to be done, hopefully I can manage everything and for the results, I hope everything to be ok for me and others.

Take Care
Jimz With Metta =)

Itchy Hands

2010-06-20T03:39:00.003+08:00

Ok I'm back here, even tough I'm trying to stop my habit of blogging in exams time, guess what?!! I just cant help it!!! Reading the posts from my friends' blog just make my hands itchy, so here am I.

My final exam (hopefully) is approximately 2 days 5 hours from now, assuming it starts at 8.45 on Tuesday. So knowing that the question is: "Am I Ready??". Common question that always pop-up in my mind every semester on exam weeks, so the answer for Tuesday's exams will be 70-80% ready, still have time to adding more numbers on it (hope can add 20-30%). I will have 2 exams on 1 day, yeah its 2 in 1 package that I get from Monash for my last semester exams (assuming everything is ok).

Speaking on 2 exams, I finished my first and second on 10 and 11 which is around last week. You know what? lets review a bit about those exams, for first exam on 10, what can I say is I'M NOT SURE!!! yeah that's it, hope everything will be OK and the lecturer let me Pass. The second exam is quiet good where I can do most of the questions even though I know it wont be perfect answers but I still can do it.

OK now time to sleep, I want to update more but maybe next time, I'm looking forward for my last battle and the days after that =). Wish all the best for friends and people who have exams on their schedule.

Take care
Jimz Chan with Metta

Usual code before Exams!!!

2010-06-08T02:23:00.001+08:00

(Copy from my old post!!, exactly the same feeling hahaha)

Short update to tell u all that Exam is coming so we need more preparation and study more!!! Not like previous semesters, this semester I feel like too relax but my heart is scared with this exam... hope I can more focus!!! yeah as u all noe, every sem I will put one code before start exam... here we go...

public class Exams
{
public static void whileExams(Study study, Effort effort)
{
System.out.println("Exams is Coming: What should I do???");
for(int date=now; date < style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">{
if(study < style="color: rgb(51, 102, 255);">{
study = study + target + effort;
effort++; study++; concentrate++;
sleep--; play--;
}

else if (study == effort)
{effort++; concentrate++;}

else
{study++; effort++; concentrate++;}

if(sleep == tooTired)
{
sleep++;
if(tooMuchSleep)
{whileExams(study,effort);}
else
{System.out.println("Time to Continue Study");}
}
}
}

public static void main(String[]args)
{
whileExams(study,effort);
System.out.println("Good Luck Everyone ");
System.out.println("Wish All da Best...");
}
}

Good Luck guys... Study Smart!!! and Study Hard!!!
Jia You!!!

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Letters to Juliet

2010-05-31T00:10:00.003+08:00

I found this poem (more to poem than letters, I think) from a movie called "Letters to Juliet", one movie that can move you heart (me at least) and feel how true love is all around you and it WORTH to fight for =). Honestly when I watch this movie with my girlfriend, I feel this movie is very very good, and if u can feel the meaning inside, I bet u can cry watching this movie. I recommend this movie to all people that searching for their true love and to people that already found it, keep what is precious for you and never let it go, "Dont wait until another 50 years..."

Ok here we go:

LETTER TO CLAIRE:
"'What' and ‘if’ two words as nonthreatening
as words come. But put
them together side-by-side and they
have the power to haunt you for the
rest of your life: ‘What if?'..."

"I don't know how your story ended.
But I know that if what you felt
then was love - true love - then
it's never too late. If it was true
then it why wouldn't it be true
now? You need only the courage to
follow your heart..."

"I don't know what a love like that
feels like... a love to leave loved
ones for, a love to cross oceans
for... but I'd like to believe if I
ever felt it. I'd have the courage
to seize it. I hope you had the
courage to seize it, Claire. And if
you didn't, I hope one day that you
will."

Nice, Take care
Jimz with Metta

Cerpen singkat: Friends =)

2010-05-19T02:58:00.000+08:00

"Tok, tok, tok !" "Tunggu sebentar!" sahut Andre mendengar pintu kamar kostnya diketuk. Dengan malas, Andre pun berdiri, berjalan ke arah pintu, "Oh, kamu, Nia, ada apa siang-siang begini?"

"Ada apa?" tanya Nia keheranan, "Oh, kamu menyindirku ya?, karena aku kepagian lebih dari setengah jam? Sorri, soalnya daerahku itu 'kan susah dapat angkot, jadinya aku keluar lebih awal, tahunya hari ini gampang!"

Andre tersenyum, "Ngak, aku ngak nyindir kamu, aku betul-betul naya, ada perlu apa kamu ke sini?".
"Becanda kamu!"

Melihat tampang Andre yang serius, Nia pun melanjutkan dengan nada agak kesal, "Hari ini hari sabtu, Susan ulang tahun hari ini dan ngundang kita makan, dan kita udah janji buat nyari kado siangnya!"

"Ohh...!" Andre menepuk keningnya, Ya..ya..ya...., maaf, aku lupa!". "Paulus mana?" lanjut Andre. Nanti juga akan ke sini, 'kan janjiannya bakal ketemu di sini, kamu juga lupa itu.. ya? Tadi juga dia udah kutelepon!"

Mereka berempat dengan Susan memang bersahabat sejak SMU dulu. Kini mereka kuliah di tempat yang berbeda-beda, namun sampai saat ini masih mengontak satu sama lainya. Uniknya, tidak satupun diantara mereka yang beragama sama. Andre sendiri seorang pemeluk agama Buddha yang tulen, Nia beragama Kristen, dan Paulus Katolik. sedangkan Susan, lebih senang mengikuti orang tuanya saja, Kong Hu Chu.
"Duduklah dulu, mau minum apa?" Andre memecah keheningan.

"Udah, angak perlu repot, kayak orang asing saja. Ntar aku ambil sendiri aja. Kamu lagi sibuk ya?" lanjut Nia, melihat kertas-kertas yang berserakan di atas meja belajar Andre. "N gambil semester pendek?" lanjutnya lagi mengingat saat itu seharusnya mereka tengah liburan. Memang beberapa Universitas termasuk Universitas tempat Andre kuliah telah mulai dengan program semester pendeknya.

"Ya aku ngambil 8 sks di semester pendek ini, tapi bukan itu yang sedang kukerjakan!" "Urusan Vihara?"
Andre mengangguk, lalu melanjutkan, "Sebenarnya....." Andre berpikir untuk mencari kata yang tepat.

"Sebenarnya kamu ngak bisa datang nanti malam karena kamu telah buat janji yang lain, di Viharamu, ya kan?"

Andre mengangguk, "Aku sudah janji sama Unit Kreatif untuk ngebantu bikin papan mading yang baru dan ....."

"Tapi kamu kan ketua!" potong Nia cepat.

Mereka terdiam, "Apa ngak ada orang lain?".

"Kasihan Frederik, stafnya banyak yang pulang kampung, dan sebagian lagi tidak peduli akan kerjaanya."

"Tapi kan masih ada yang lain, yang bukan staf unit itu pun seharusnya ikut andil dong! Udah sana telepon Frederik dan bilang kamu ngak bisa datang!"

"Ya, tapi kamu kan setidaknya ngerti gimana kondisinya, berapa orang yang benar-benar punya perhatian buat...buat...."

"Aku ngak mau dengar itu, Andre. Gimana nanti perasaan Susan. Pas kita janjian nonton waktu itu juga udah kamu batalin gara-gara ada rapat di Viharamu kan?".

Andre menghela napa, "Sejujurnya, aku iri sama organisasi agama kalian!"

"Gimana kuliahmu?" "Apa?", "Kuliahmu!?" "Aku ngak lulus dua mata kuliah!" Andre menunduk, ada suatu rasa malu juga ketika dia menyebutkan itu.

Kamu ingat nilai-nilai kamu di tingkat I dulu, dan bagaimana pujian guru-guru selalu dilayangkan padamu semasa SMU dulu?". "Aku ngak pingin membahas masalah itu, Nia".

"Bagaimana kamu harus menghadapi masalah itu, Andre!".

"Ya tapi semuanya telah menjadi begitu rumit, dan itulah yang ingin aku pecahkan sekarang ini. Perhatian dari staf dan umat yang sangat kurang, pihak yayasan, belum lagi senior-senior yang turut campur, padahal mereka sendiri kurasa belum tentu mengerti betul bagaimana kondisi Vihara sekarang. Belum lagi...", Andre terhenti, tak tahu lagi apa yang ingin dikatakannya.

"Belum lagi ? Ah...tak tahulah !"

Suasana hening sejenak, "Kapan terakhir kamu minta bantuan ?"

Andre mengingat-ingat, "Hari minggu kemarin, ketika aku minta Hedy untuk mengkoordinir umat yang mau main basket !" Nia tersenyum, "Itu bukan minta bantuan, itu kan memang tugasnya dia sebagai koordinator Olahraga!"

"Oh..dua hari yang lalu ketika kuminta Nancy untuk mengetikkan surat..." Andre tidak melanjutkan kalimatnya.

"Kamu berubah banyak, Andre. Mana sistem pembagian waktumu yang bagus itu, ketika kamu berhasil memimpin OSIS tanpa menanggalkan gelarmu sebagai siswa dengan nilai terbaik di sekolah kita?"

Suasana hening kembali, "Kurasa kesalahanmu cuma satu, kamu begitu ingin memajukan Viharamu dan Agama Buddha. Itu memang suatu hal yang sangat indah dan terpuji, tapi caramu salah, bukan dengan mengorbankan dirimu habis-habisan begitu. Mereka juga perlu belajar bertanggung jawab. Disitulah perananmu, arahkan mereka, dan tak perlu sungkan untuk menegur mereka!" "Kenapa kamu begitu perhatian padaku, Nia? Apakah ...?"

"Kamu sahabatku. Betapapun jeleknya kamu, apapun agamamu, yang jelas kita telah bersahabat sejak SMU, dan itu yang ingin aku jalani!"

Untuk kesekian kalinya, suasana hening kembali tercipta, "Kupikir senior-seniormu juga mesti berpikiran seperti ini, tidak hanya mengkritik saja, tetapi juga berusaha untuk melihat kondisi di dalamnya. Staf-staf kamu juga, kalau mereka benar-benar peduli dan sadar akan komitmennya, semoga lambat laun mereka bisa menempatkan diri secara tepat."

Andre tersenyum masam, "Tapi...bagaimana aku bisa memulai itu semua?" Nia mengangkat bahunya, "Mungkin kamu bisa menuliskan percakapan kita ini menjadi sebuah cerpen sebagai permulaan!"

Andre berpikir sejenak, lalu mengangguk-angguk sendiri dan berkata, "Terima kasih, Nia!" Nia cuma bisa mengangguk.

Tiba-tiba mereka dikejutkan suara Paulus, "Aduh, maaf aku terlambat hampir 10 menit, tadi dompetku ketinggalan, jadi aku harus kembali untuk mengambilnya dan..."

Andre mengusap air matanya yang tanpa sadar telah merebak tadi, "Masuklah dulu, Paul! Aku telepon teman dulu, t'rus ganti baju, dan kita segera berangkat, Oce?"

Paulus cuma terheran-heran, "Apa aku ketinggalan sesuatu?" Nia tersenyum, "Ya, jelas, sebuah cerita indah!"

(Dikutip dari Berita Vimala Dharma)

One wonderful day~

2010-05-17T00:58:00.005+08:00

Last Saturday is one wonderful day for me, a lot of things happened, start from the morning when I have to wake up from my endless sleep (err... haha), then me, Colin, Edi and Shinta + Ms. Ng went to BGF (Buddhist Gem Fellowship) if I'm not mistaken, we are there to attend the launch of 2nd album of i.gemz, I'm so amazed with their voice and talent, really feel super duper happy and cant stop smiling there =), thanks for people who invite me to attend the ceremony ^^. Btw before I forget, I also purchase the album and get the signatures from the i.gemz members, here the pics =) really happy for the CD haha

Then I spent my whole day at D'Lot practicing guitar, yeay I feel I'm improving eventhough just a little bit, but I dint care coz I feel so happy when practicing guitar. At the night is the last session of 'TaraBuddY which means no more session for this semester and I will definitely miss them T.T Hope I'm still around when next semester session start =) So me and Colin received a lot of surprises there, from the videos, hugs, and letters... really feel very special and honestly I'm very speechless at that time, no words in my mind, so funny coz I seldom feel like that, nice. Thanks again for all people who support me and encourage me for the best of me... thanks a lot... really appreciate it...

The end of the session some of us went to eat SnowFlakes at SS15, yeay nice supper before back to home and sleep.... I think I have no more words to type here, the pics will be publish later maybe at facebook for 'TBY session =)

Thanks guys,
Take care and Gonna miss 'TBY for SURE!!!! =)
Jimz With Metta

Keluarga

2010-05-05T13:05:00.002+08:00

‘Harta yg paling berharga,

adalah kluarga…

Istana yg paling indah,

adalah kluarga…

Puisi yg paling bermakna,

adalah kluarga…

Mutiara, tiada tara,

adalah kluarga..’

Source: "Keluarga Cemara"

Problems arise... but There will be Tomorrow!!!

2010-05-03T00:16:00.003+08:00

Masalah akan datang, tapi itu pun akan berlalu, kita hanya bisa mencoba menyelesaikan, mencoba bertahan dan menjadi kuat... here's some lyrics that I found really help me to face my problems especially now:

So when you feel like hope is gone,
Look inside you and be strong,
And you'll finally see the truth that a hero lies in you
Hold on,
There will be tomorrow,
In time you'll find the way.

From :HERO - Mariah Carey

Take Care
Jimz Chan with Metta

Semua karena Cinta

2010-05-02T02:34:00.000+08:00

Seorang Kakek berjalan perlahan di trotoar itu, tangannya membawa bungkusan kantong plastik berisi makanan. Wajahnya terlihat damai sangat bersahaja, senyuman terindah tidak pernah meninggalkan wajahnya. Setiap orang yang ditemuinya disapanya dengan hangat, dan mereka yang disapa juga memberikan senyuman terhangatnya di pagi hari ini, mengalahkan hangatnya sinar mentari yang baru saja mulai terbit.

Sebuah pemandangan yang sangat menyentuh hati, diri ini tergerak untuk mendekati Sang kakek, dan mulailah percakapan ini terjadi;
"Selamat pagi, kek, hari yang bahagia yah......." sapaku

"Bahagia atau tidak, bagaimana hatimu memikirkannya, Nak." sambil tersenyum dan melanjutkan ucapannya:
"Banyak orang bahagia di luarnya ternyata sangat menderita di dalamnya, ada juga yang begitu terlihat menderita tetapi sangat bahagia di hatinya" Ia menatapku dengan penuh kasih dan melanjutkan perkataannya: "menurutmu kakek tua ini katagori yang mana, Nak?"

"Tentunya kakek tidak dua-duanya, karena aku lihat kakek bahagia luar dalam dong..." kataku sambil terus berjalan menemani gerak dari langkah kakinya yang berjalan lambat.

"Semua orang pasti menginginkan dirinya bahagia, dari tampilan luar ia ingin semua orang mengetahui bahwa ia sedang gembira, dan hatinya penuh dengan kebahagiaan, iya kan?"
"Tetapi dunia ini tidak ada yang sempurna, terkadang kita harus bersandiwara untuk menutupi kekurangan dan kesedihan kita, dan kadang kala dengan sandiwara itu, banyak hal yang kita bisa dapatkan, yang akhirnya menghibur dan menjawab persoalan hidup kita."

Menatapku dan melanjutkan kata-kata bijaksananya:
"Inilah yang banyak orang kurang pahami tentang arti lain dari 'DUNIA INI PANGGUNG SANDIWARA', semua orang berpikir bersandiwara itu tidak baik, semuanya negatif. Padahal pada saat kita sedih dan orang lain tidak tahu kesedihan kita, tidak akan ada orang yang sakit hati, tidak akan ada orang yang patah hati, tidak ada perselisihan kemudiannya dan sebaliknya semua terhibur karena melihat kita begitu gembira, padahal hanya tampak luarnya saja. Kita tidak merepotkan orang lain, dan akibatnya tanpa disadari semua orang menghibur kita dengan senyumannya yang terindah, dengan canda tawanya yang menutupi semua lubang luka di hati, bahkan kadang-kadang kita memiliki teman2 yang begitu luar biasa menemani kita karena mereka bahagia bersama kita, padahal mereka sama sekali tidak tahu perasaanmu yang sesungguhnya, tetapi kebahagiaan itu sudah ada disana bukan?"

"Coba kamu bayangkan, seandainya kita sedang marah, jengkel, kesel, dan semua ditunjukan dengan jelas kepada semua orang, agar satu dunia dapat mengetahui isi hatimu, apakah mereka masih bisa tersenyum padamu? mungkin untuk bercanda saja sudah takut, tanpa kau sadari mereka akan menjauhimu. Apakah beban hidupmu akan berkurang atau malah menambah beban baru lagi?"

Ttraaaaaaaassssssssss........ satu tamparan telak mengenai wajahku......
Kata-kata itu begitu indah, menyadarkanku dari kebodohanku selama ini.
Aku orang yang tempramental, selalu menunjukan semua isi hatiku pada orang-orang terdekatku, teman-temanku agar mereka tahu siapa aku........
Tak disangka perjumpaanku dengan kakek tua itu membuat kau menyadari, bahwa terkadang kita memang harus bersandiwara, agar senyuman di wajah kita dapat menghibur orang lain, dan orang lain pun akan memberikan keindahan hatinya kepada kita, dan kadang kala hati yang telah membeku pun dapat perlahan melumer dan menghangat.

Ada lagi kata-kata yang selalu ku ingat dari percakapan terkahir kami:
"Kakek sudah tua, sudah banyak pengalaman baik pahit maupun manisnya kehidupan, yang mampu membuat kakek tetap bahagia sampai saat ini adalah Cinta..... yahh CINTA. SEMUA KARENA CINTA,
aku mencintai alm isteriku, aku mencintai anak-anakku, aku mencintai cucu-cucuku, aku mencintai tetangga-tetanggaku, aku mencintai orang-orang yang kutemui sepanjang jalan ini, aku mencintai semua anak-anak di jalan, aku mencintai semua binatang yang kutemui...... Inilah yang membuatku mengerti arti kehidupan, karena CINTA tidak pernah membiarkan kau terus menerus BERSEDIH. Karena CINTA selalu mengisi hatimu dan relung hati yang kosong, Karena CINTA pulalah membuat aku mampu mengatasi segala persoalan hidupmu"

"DUNIA INI PANGGUNG SANDIWARA, tetapi isilah alur ceritanya menjadi CERITA CINTA, percayalah itu akan memberikan kekuatan bagi hidupmu"

Source: "Secangkir Teh"

Published!!!!

2010-04-27T23:02:00.002+08:00

Guys, here we go... as what I promised in my last post, me, Edi and Carolina formed a group to manage a blog that we called "KeyofWisdom" to share stories, journal, videos or even audios to all people who like story especially to improve them self to be one wise man.

To find out more about this blog, check it out, read it, comment it and give us suggestions, thanks all =) May u all be well and happy always + hope the blog gives benefit to everyone.

Take Care
Jimz with Metta

ExciteD!!!

2010-04-24T02:12:00.002+08:00

Yeah I feel very ExciteD now, coz I have a little project with two of my friends, I'm not sure how this project will be in the future but for now, I hope everything will be ok and all people can get the benefits from this project. Wanna noe what is the project? soon it will be release and hope u guys like it. =)

now i need to sleep because tomorrow will be a busy day for me, have to do assignments, manage this little project, have music club at D'Lot and at the night we will have igemz, really double the feeling, more and more excited!!!

ok la, thanks to two of my friends, u guys will be published in the next post haha wait for their name~~ lolz...

Take Care
Jimz Chan with Metta =)

Nice song

2010-04-20T10:26:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, just wanna share one song with u all, I record this song on the night of "Sound of Compassion" Concert, the video is blur coz I sit so far, but the voice should be clear =)
If anyone happen to know the title of this song, please tell me, I want to find and download it ^^
Here we go:

Take Care
Jimz with Metta

Joyful Heart~

2010-04-20T01:09:00.007+08:00

I'm happy~
Feel so relieve when knowing the one you LOVE
are well and GOOD
Happy coz everything is changing BIT by BIT
Coz everything that we fighting for is WORTH-ED and
its showing the RESULT=)

Happy when u plant the SEED,
it grows and give you beautiful FLOWER =)
Happy when u are out in the rain,
There is SUN that waiting to shine with YOU

Feel the JOYFUL surround you,
Feel the others that SHARE with you,
Feel that you are LOVED!!
And Share the FEELING with others

I wish everything that is GREAT will last forever,
wish that what I'm expecting is TRUE~
With SMILE we can face this harsh WORLD!
and with LOVE conquer EVERYTHING =)

Some random post from my joyful heart, I wish I can feel this joyful feeling everyday and I can give the same feeling to OTHERS!!! =)

Jimz with Metta

Something to type...

2010-04-20T00:47:00.003+08:00

Listening to "Beautiful - Jim Brickman feat Wayne Brady" really make me fly and feel the love =). Actually I have nothing to type as usual but I fell like typing my blog >.< (weird). So anywae, How r you guys? Hows life (uni and workin)? Have u smile today or Are you happy today? I hope u all are ok and happy.

Oh yeah just now I read Edi's blog about yesterday night, "Sound Of Compassion" Concert, if Edi said he has no interest in this concert at first then I will say that "I'm looking forward for this concert since the begining I heard bout it!!" Don't know why but I just love the music and its true, when I listen to them I feel like... waoo... wonderful voice, nice hymns and I'm LUCKY to be there with my friends ^^.

I will have my mid-test in 3 days, hope everything will be ok, wish me luck and I wish everybody good luck and spirit for their test too!!! hmm Oh yah!!! this week IGEMZ is coming to our 'TaraBuddY session, we will have singing session with them, and they will sing their newest album that not many people heard before... yeay... so if u read this blog and interested, come and join us!!! this Saturday =) I cant wait for this weekend.... yeay....

Take care guys, nite
Jimz Chan with Metta

Beautiful - Jim Brickman feat Wayne Brady

2010-04-19T23:44:00.001+08:00

From the Moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked into your eyes
there was something about you
I knew I knew
that you were once in a life time
a treasure near impossible to find
and I know how lucky I am to have you

Chorus:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Holding you in my arms
no one else has fit so perfectly
I could dance forever with you, with you
and at the stroke of midnight
please forgive me if I can't let go
cause I never dreamed I'd find a Cinderella of my own

Chorus:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

Chorus repeat:
Cause I've seen the rainbows that can take your breath away
the beauty of the setting sun that ends a perfect day
and when it comes to shooting stars, I've seen a few
but I've never seen anything...
Oh Oh, Oh no, I've never seen anything...as beautiful as you

from the moment I saw you,
from the moment I looked ïnto your eyes...

Here the video from Youtube, Enjoy =)

Delapan kado Terindah.^_^

2010-04-17T00:50:00.000+08:00

Delapan macam kado ini adalah hadiah terindah dan tak ternilai bagi orang-orang yang Anda sayangi.

Kehadiran.
Kehadiran orang yang dikasihi adalah kado yang tak ternilai harganya. Memang kita bisa juga hadir lewat surat , telepon, foto, atau fax. Namun dengan berada di sampingnya, Anda dan dia dapat berbagi perasaan, perhatian, dan kasih sayang secara lebih utuh dan intensif. Jadikan kehadiran Anda sebagai pembawa kebahagiaan.

Mendengar.
Sedikit orang yang mampu memberikan kado ini. Sebab, kebanyakan orang lebih suka didengarkan ketimbang mendengarkan. Dengan mencurahkan perhatian pada segala ucapannya, secara tak langsung kita juga telah menumbuhkan kesabaran dan kerendahan hati. Untuk bisa mendengar dengan baik, pastikan Anda dalam keadaan betul-betul relaks dan bisa menangkap utuh apa yang disampaikan. Tatap wajahnya. Tidak perlu menyela, mengkritik, apalagi menghakimi. Biarkan ia menuntaskannya, ini memudahkan Anda memberikan tanggapan yang tepat setelah itu. Tidak harus berupa diskusi atau penilaian. Sekedar ucapan terima kasih pun akan terdengar manis baginya.

Diam.
Seperti kata-kata, di dalam diam juga ada kekuatan. Diam bisa dipakai untuk menghukum, mengusir, atau membingungkan orang. Tapi lebih dari segalaya, diam juga bisa menunjukkan kecintaan kita pada seseorang karena memberinya "ruang". Terlebih jika sehari-hari kita sudah terbiasa gemar menasehati, mengatur, mengkritik, bahkan mengomel.

Kebebasan.
Mencintai seseorang bukan berarti memberi kita hak penuh untuk memiliki atau mengatur kehidupannya. Bisakah kita mengaku mencintai seseorang jika kita selalu mengekangnya? Memberi kebebasan adalah salah satu perwujudan cinta. Makna kebebasan bukanlah "kamu bebas berbuat semaumu". Lebih dalam dari itu, memberi kebebasan adalah memberinya kepercayaan penuh untuk bertanggung jawab atas segala hal yang ia putuskan atau lakukan.

Keindahan.
Siapa yang tak bahagia, jika orang yang disayangi tiba-tiba tampil lebih ganteng atau cantik? Tampil indah dan rupawan juga merupakan sebuah kado yang indah. Selain keindahan penampilan pribadi, Anda pun bisa menghadiahkan keindahan suasana di rumah. Vas dan bunga segar cantik di ruang keluarga atau meja makan yang tertata indah, misalnya.

Tanggapan Positif.
Tanpa sadar, sering kita memberikan penilaian negatif terhadap pikiran, sikap, atau tindakan orang yang kita sayangi. Seolah-olah tidak ada yang benar dari dirinya dan kebenaran mutlak hanya ada pada kita. Kali ini, coba hadiahkan tanggapan positif. Nyatakan dengan jelas dan tulus. Cobalah ingat, berapa kali dalam seminggu terakhir Anda mengucapkan terima kasih atas segala hal yang dilakukannya demi Anda. Ingat-ingat pula, pernahkah Anda memujinya? Kedua hal itu, ucapan terima kasih dan pujian (dan juga permintaan maaf) adalah kado indah yang sering terlupakan.

Kesediaan Mengalah.
Tidak semua masalah layak menjadi bahan pertengkaran. Apalagi sampai menjadi pertengkaran yang hebat. Bila Anda memikirkan hal ini, berarti Anda siap memberikan kado "kesediaan mengalah". Kesediaan untuk mengalah juga dapat melunturkan sakit hati dan mengajak kita menyadari bahwa tidak ada manusia yang sempurna di dunia ini.

Senyuman.
Percaya atau tidak, kekuatan senyuman amat luar biasa. Senyuman, terlebih yang diberikan dengan tulus, bisa menjadi pencair hubungan yang beku, pemberi semangat dalam keputusasaan, pencerah suasana muram, bahkan obat penenang jiwa yang resah. Senyuman juga merupakan isyarat untuk membuka diri dengan dunia sekeliling kita. Kapan terakhir kali Anda menghadiahkan senyuman manis pada orang yang dikasihi

Source: "Somewhere from Internet", 2010

Take care
Jimz Chan

New Blog skin??

2010-04-15T00:36:00.002+08:00

Just think to change my blog's skin, not sure but maybe I will change it soon...
hungry, lazy, a lot of works and need to sleep now...

Random post, not really important =)
Nitez and Take Care

Jimz chan

Need more energy!!!

2010-04-12T00:08:00.002+08:00

Mid break is END!!! waoo its so fast and I havent finish all my assignments for this week and next week + preparation for mid test =.=". Current state is tired, exhausted, and my body feel a bit warm (hope this is not fever, I hate fever!!) and sleepy to the max since I have not enough sleep for few days already, push my body over its limit I guess, I haven do something like this for long time and guess what, my body cant cope with it anymore so I need to know my limit now.

Ok, why I have not enough sleep? easy answer, because I'm too busy with my activities and assignments. Last Saturday is the day for Paintball, yeah and the night before that I sleep only for 4 hours and I wake up early in the morning at 6 to join paintball. 1 day exercise is fun, I received shots at 8 visible places and more at invisible places, 2 near my neck n it feels so pain (until now, the other shot have no pain at least not until I touch them O.o"). Back from paintball, continue with my assignments until night then go to TBY session *not enough rest*, sleep at 1 again....

Planning to go to Pattidana as Kapiah yesterday but too bad I cant wake up T.T I really want to go there and help, but no choice my body cant move , my muscles pain and I only wake at 7.30 where the others already wait for bus to go to temple, feel regret and sad though. So now I need my sleep!!! I guess when I read this post again I can say "What am I talking about here? make no sense (I think)" my eyes are heavy... tomorrow start uni life again for another 7 weeks before Final Exams.

Ganbatte for all people, Jiayou doing ur assignments, study.
Always positive and dont forget to REST!!!
Take Care

Jimz Chan

Be Happy and Smile for the WORLD!! =)

2010-04-09T01:57:00.006+08:00

*Staring at monitor for more than 5 minutes thinking what to write* Dont really have topics tonight but I just want to update this blog with something which I dont know what. Currently I'm enjoying my last mid break at Monash (hopefully everything is OK), but as usual eventhough it called as mid break, I dont really have my mid break time to relax and slowly do my assignments. I have 4 assignments due in two weeks time, but I haven finish any single of those assignments, yah cant blame anyone or anything since I'm too busy these few days...

These few days my parents come from Indonesia to visit me and my sis, we have so much fun everyday, we go to a lot of places (malls) and shop + walk till down =) nice experience since we havent go out this much lately, too bad big bro is not here but I will send him some pics so he will feel some of our joy too ^^

I remembered something that I wanted to type here, its about my old blogs. I've read some of my old posts and realize that eventhough I'm not good at writing, in fact I know I'm a bit sucks haha but I manage to type a lot of words in every post of mine, and when I read it again I feel like, is this me who type this? lol... Some of my posts or should I say most of them are complaining about life and how I face them, but lately I just feel that I can blog something else, something different ^^. I read those old posts and I stop at one of my post that I thought unique since I add one quotation in it, that quotation really remind me how should I behave and how to face this world =). Here we go:

"Try to Smile to Ur self, and
Don't carry the world upon your shoulders"

I'm not sure where these words come from, from me or others? but I like them so much... Ok now I should go sleep and wake early tomorrow to continue my assignments, so I will close this blog with one more quotation that stuck on my mind since I just read some of my old posts, here we go again:

"The Past is there for U not to rely or dwell upon it,
it's there to gives us the lesson of LIFE =)"

Good Night guys, Jiayou for all ur assignments and Be Happy ^.~
Take Care
Jimz Chan 21

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2010-04-08T16:35:00.006+08:00

Written By Regina Brett, 90 years old, of The Plain Dealer, Cleveland, Ohio.
作者： Regina Brett，90歲，來自俄亥俄州，克里夫蘭，Plain Dealer城

1. Life isn't fair, but it's still good.
1。 人生是不公平，但還是好得很。

2. When in doubt, just take the next small step.
2。 懷疑的時候，為未來踏出一小步。

3. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.
3。 人生太短，短到來不及浪費時間去恨任何一個人。

4. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends and parents will. Stay in touch.
4。 生病的時候，你的工作不會照顧妳。你的朋友和父母會。保持聯絡。

5. Pay off your credit cards every month.
5。 每一個月付清你的信用卡。

6. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
6。 你不需要每一次都吵贏。同意你不同意的。

7. Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.
7。 找人一起哭。它比獨自啜泣更加療愈。

8. It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.
8。 對上帝生氣沒有關係。祂受得了。

9. Save for retirement starting with your first pay check.
9。 退休存款從你的第一張薪水條開始。

10. When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.
10。講到巧克力，抗拒只是徒勞無功。

11. Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.
11。和你的過去和解，所以它不會搞砸你的當下。

12. It's OK to let your children see you cry.
12。讓你的孩子看到你哭沒有關係。

13. Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
13。別拿自己的人生和他人做比較。你根本不清楚他們的人生是怎麼一回事。

14. If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.
14。如果一段親密關係要偷偷摸摸，你根本不應該涉入。

15. Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry; God never blinks.

15。一眨眼的功夫什麼都會變。但是別擔心： 上帝從來不眨眼。

16. Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.
16。深吸一口氣。它會安定你的腦。

17. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.
17。沒用，不美，或不喜悅的東西都丟掉。

18. Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.
18。沒讓你死的真的會讓你更堅強。

19. It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second one is up to you and no one else.
19。重拾快樂童年永不嫌晚。但這第二次只能靠你不靠人。

20. When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take no for an answer.

20。當關乎追求你生命的所愛，不要把不要當答案。

21. Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.
21。點蠟燭，用好的床單，穿上炫麗的內衣。不要特殊場合才用。今天就是特別的一天。

22. Over prepare, then go with the flow.
22。準備要過於周全，然後隨遇而安。

23. Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.
23。現在就離經叛道。不要一把年紀了才開始穿上紫色。

24. The most important sex organ is the brain.
24。最重要的性器官是腦袋。

25. No one is in charge of your happiness but you.
25。除了你，沒有人在主宰你的快樂。

26. Frame every so-called disaster with these words: 'In five years, will this matter?'
26。把所謂的不幸用這一句話把它表框起來 "五年後，這還重要嗎?"

27. Always choose life.
27。永遠選擇生活。

28. Forgive everyone everything.
28。原諒每一個人每一件事。

29. What other people think of you is none of your business.
29。別人怎麼看你不干你的事。

30. Time heals almost everything. Give time time.
30。時間會痊癒幾乎每一件事。要給時間，時間。

31. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
31。無論情況多好或多壞，它都會變的。

32. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
32。不要那麼認真的看待自己。沒有人會這樣看待你的。

33. Believe in miracles.
33。相信奇蹟。

34. God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything you did or didn't do.
34。上帝愛你是因為祂就是這樣，不是因為你做了什麼或是沒做什麼。

35. Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.
35。不要稽查人生。現在就呈現和做最大的發揮。

36. Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.
36。變老了打敗另一種選項 - 死得早。

37. Your children get only one childhood.
37。你的孩子只有一個童年。

38. All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.
38。最後真正最重要的是你愛過。

39. Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.
39。每一天都出門。奇蹟在四處等著。

40. If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone else's, we'd grab ours back.
40。如果我們都把我們的問題都丟成一堆，然後看看其他人的，我們會把我們的撿回來。

41. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
41。忌妒浪費時間。你已經擁有你所需要的了。

42. The best is yet to come.
42。最好的都還沒來。

43. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
43。不管你感覺如何，起來，穿好和呈現。

44. Yield.
44。讓自己每天快樂。

45. Life isn't tied with a bow, but it's still a gift."
45。人生不會打上蝴蝶結，但它仍然是一份禮物。

Enjoy and practice =)
Take Care
Jimz Chan

Another surprise party!!!

2010-04-05T12:07:00.003+08:00

Pake Indo aja yah, So.. di previous post uda di tulis tentang another surprise and I'm right!! Tanpa ku sadari ku telah di kerjain oleh my honey seharian =) tp senang seh... thanks honey... So party nya di lakukan di Sunway cafetaria, jadi ingat masa lalu ketika ultah 18th ku (pertama di Malaysia), mereka juga merayakan di Sunway Cafetaria lol.

Party yg sangat menyenangkan mereka merayakan sekaligus 2 orang, me dan Ivana. Gak tao mo blg gmana but so much fun, so much joy and happiness. Thanks guys, u guys really make my birthday more and more and more... AMAZING!!! Love you guys... My sis + Chicken D'Gondelz (Chan, Har, Farid, Edie, Leo, Nat, Mon, Fani, Vina, Vee, Fimtan, Ameq, Ann, Colin), and some other friends (Devi, Bambang, Vania) Thanks guys... really haha...

Sebenrnya banyak lg yg mo di ketik tp udah ah, kebanyakan tar... so Happy Birthday to me!! and Ivana!! haha... May we all be well and HAPPY oways!!!

Take Care
Jimz Chan

4th April 2010!!!!

2010-04-04T18:52:00.004+08:00

U guys should know what is the date mean, yeah its my birthday!!! Woot!!! Starting last night on 12 O'Clock, I'm officially become 21 years old. Old? nope!!! 21 is the age of MAN, so I should act like a man now, trying to be more mature than before. My birthday start with one big surprise from my honey, she checked her watch at 12 and suddenly say "Happy Birthday Honey" waoo... exactly at 12!! She is the 1st, yeay... so happy ^^ and also she gave me a gift that no one can ever give to me, Thanks Honey ^^.

Secondly, when I arrived home, my housemates are sleeping but one thing that surprise me that Julie has prepared her own surprise for me, on my desk there are a lot of candle with shape "21" + board with "Happy Birthday Jimmy" + cards and my bdae present, really surprise me one more time... Thanks guys... love it so much, gonna put the pics here soon...

Actually there still some others surprises, but I just type two of those here ^^. I'm still waiting for others though =P. Btw I need to go now, be ready for my dinner~~ so gonna update sometimes in the future...

Keep Smiling guy =)
Take Care

Jimz Chan

The comment~

2010-03-28T22:13:00.005+08:00

Here is the comment, I feel like its true and really open my eyes, yeah anyway, I like it so I ask permission to put it here, here is it~~

"The answer is NO..i never know when i am narrow minded or selfish..i never know when i am ignorant..i never know when i am doing something stupid or hurting those whom i love dearly..

i take those i love for granted..i think, just because they love me, i am able to say everything in my mind, that its okay to be angry or sad in front of them, because i feel they wont judge me..because i feel they will support me..

so no..i never know when i m talking too much n not listening to them when they hv their problems..n thats when i learn who my true friends r..their those ppl which choose to still b by my side..b my friend..accept me n love me for all those times when i am selfish, ignorant, bad, hurtful

haha..but u know what? its okay to b angry at such ppl sometimes..to b angry at ppl who think so ignorantly is to have the heart of a human being..but to see through that, forgive them, realize its not their fault..that is to have the heart of an angel =)"

My previous post is one point of view of one problem, and here I can say this is also similar wif my point of view from the other side of that problem, I will put the 3rd point of view if I can...

Jimz Chan

To Forgive...

2010-03-28T22:06:00.004+08:00

I read one comment from my friend Ming Han, Thanks uncle, I will learn and I know that I'm not perfect.. but I will learn... learn how to "forgive". Its hard, difficult but your words inspire me...

"To see through that, Forgive them, realize its not their fault..that is to have the heart of an angel =)"

Thanks uncle, I will learn to be better human being... learn how to change one rubbish into beautiful flower... Be Happy =)

Jimz Chan

Mi Xiu Mi Xiu~~

2010-03-28T20:52:00.003+08:00

setelah di matikan 1 malam, akhirnya di nyalakan lagi~~~ reason na simple aja, under construction~~ haha, sekarang lagi ujan, macam badai... ku nyaris terbang karena duduk di luar rumah tanpa pemberat.... sangking kurus nya diriku mungkin, tp tas ku yg berat itu juga mpir melayang -.- sangat mengerikan angin nya....

so status dluar skarang sedang badai... dan karena badai ku tak bs melepas rindu~~~ dont aske me why tp ketika sampai dirmah feel like missing her so much, yah namanya jg kangen mo gimana lagi... kangen berat pula haha... Miss her so much~~

ok nothing new, ku sudah mulai belajar fokus di saat yg diperlukan so tugas ku tidak terbengkalai lagi~~~ (setelah terbengkalai sekian minggu, arus rush neh) but its ok, sudah dislesaikan most of them tp blm yakin, email guru lagi~~~ nanana~~~

ok la back to business, back to tugas... jgan mikir aneh2 lgi... fokus... FOCUS!!! Ganbatte~~~
Take CAre
Jimz Chan

I wonder....

2010-03-27T12:17:00.003+08:00

Why sometimes people just so IGNORANT
Can be so SELFISH
Judge only with their SMALL and NARROW point of view
Blame others when they never see deep inside them
for who is wrong or right....

Sometimes people just so COMPLICATED
so ABSTRACT....
Don't ever think to read one MIND coz we r not capable YET...
Don't ever think that u know when the fact says
U don't even know single thing...

How to be perfect?
How to make some other person to be better?
be perfect as well?
I wonder...

Do u ever think that everything u did, is sometime USELESS...
all ur effort r just a waste?
people wondering, I wonder....

Another Random Post~~~
Jimz Chan

1 month~

2010-03-25T23:59:00.005+08:00

Yup from the title you can guess, today is my 1 month celebration of having girlfriend, my angel... Thanks to my angel for this one awesome month, we still have long way to go but I believe we can face everything together!!! I'm so happy tonight, and happier coz u always there for me =)

As u all know that I still have some problems that unsolved until now, but I hope those problems can be vanish soon... and every body can be happy and smile again, keep optimist and do your best!!!

nothing much, just wanna say that... sleep time, tomorrow another new day for me and my assignments... jiayou!!!

Jimz Chan

another week, another day~~~

2010-03-22T00:11:00.002+08:00

Problems are not permanent... Yup saia tao akan hal itu dan oleh karena itu ku harus bertahan dan bersabar... Hari ini Sunday and saia seperti biasa stiap minggu pergi ke Vihara SJBA untuk morning puja and listen to the Dhamma Talk... so Dhamma Talk hari ini di sampaikan oleh salah satu favorite ku, Dr. Chan Khai Yin dan hari ini berbicara tentang 6 Paramist...

Dhamma talk hari ini sangat membuat ku merenung, ada bbrp kalimat yang gak bisa hilang dari pikiran ku, misalnya sperti:"You try ur best, and prepared for the worst" yeap mungkin karena ku sedang ada masalah, tp kalimat ini sangat memberi ku inspirasi agar tidak terlalu stress dan terlarut dalam masalah ku sndr... ada bbrp kalimat2 lain yg sangat membangun dan membuat ku sadar... so I can move forward even just a little bit, tp karena ku telah maju, ku merasa sangat berbeda... lebih ringan dari beban2 berat ku sebelum nya....

Selain itu hari ini ku sangat bahagia, senang or whatever u called it... alasannya mungkin karena ku telah mencoba mempersiapkan diri dan memberikan my best for my problems, itu salah satu na dan di dukung oleh bbrp faktor lain nya dan tidak ketinggalan my GF, dorongan, support dan bantuan dari nya sangat membuat ku kuat, tabah dan merasa bs melewati smua masalah dan tantangan ini... ku percaya ku bisa melewati dan menyelesaikan nya.... Thanks to my honey Nat2~ ^^

So another day has passed... kita disini tidak permanent, so give ur self the best of U and enjoy ur day to the max, Tidak ada masalah yg tidak terselesaikan!!! Optimist!!!

Jimz Chan

I just dont know what to do....

2010-03-20T02:19:00.003+08:00

current state: capek, lemas, badan sakit, panas, otak panas, stress, perut ga enak, smua jade 1... ada bbrp hal lg tp ga sa di sbut smua emang ga enak... ada orang blg stress pny masalah, ternyata lebih stress ketika ga tao gmana beresin masalah orang lain... berusaha menutupi yg 1, ternyata tidak membuahkan hasil.... lubang tambalan terbuka lagi... smua yg da tertutup terbuka dan ketahuan... so apa jade na? ku jg ga tao...

mo menjerit? mo maki2? mo mukul2? mo banting2 barang? segala nya mo di lakukan... tp apa guna? maslah ga selsai, capek n sakit yg ada.... tp kalo ga bgt hati ini sakit skali, capek mental, capek hati dan sakit segala sakit berdatangan.... masalah ini ga slesai mgkn akan datang masalah laen... ga slesai2... gmana kerjaan yg laen? terbengkalai karena ini? wah sangat mungkin... so gmana? apa yg arus di lakukan? APA?!!!! argh ga tao la....

pressure, stress, yeah smua ada... ku tak tao ku kuat ato tidak, tp coba bertahan, smoga smua selesai dgn baik!!! jgan sampe ada yg di rugikan.... ku capek, ku lemas, otaku ku ga mo mikir, darah tinggi, bernafas pun bs sakit apaan neh?, capek dll, tugas2 ku terbengkalai... huff... memang stiap orang pny stress sndr... harus di hadapin....

SELESAIKAN!!!! semua ada jalan keluarnya, believe it... smua bs di slesaikan....
try it 1 more time.... and i pray this will work this time....

2nd post after 2 months

2010-03-11T00:06:00.004+08:00

I'm back after two months, I thought I will not update this blog anymore since I feel very tired, lazy and a lot of reasons that will be too many if I listed here. So here I am with a lot of things to tell, and I dont even know where to start....

I have started my uni life again, this week is 2nd week of teaching period, so far I enjoyed uni life's since this will be my last semester so I need to enjoy and work very hard so I can graduate with others this November, cant wait for 13 November, since I just came back from my friends graduation party today... they wear the coat(or anything that thing called) and looks very COOL!!! parents are PROUD for their sons and daughters, I want my parents feel that too... It will be very nice feeling... cant wait to see them smile when I'm Graduate from Monash.... Jiayou study so I can make it happen...

2nd thing is I have girlfriend now, I'm really happy coz I have her wif me, Thanks God cause let me noe her and let her be wif me... ok I wont talk much bout it since it will become a little too private there. Next thing is about my activities, this sem will be as busy as last semester or more busy perhaps? Coz I joined few clubs like 'TaraBuddY and MBS, maybe planning to adding more clubs but I'm afraid my works will disturb my schedule of study and having fun so let me think more bout it...

I have a lot of things but lets keep it for next time... maybe I wont be updating this blog for another long time but who noes maybe I will update new things tomorrow, we never know.... I need to sleep 1st, class at 8 tomorrow... Nitez...

P.S. Any mistakes of any kind of typing will be edited next time~

Take Care
Jimz Chan

1st post, first month: January....

2010-01-18T00:38:00.003+08:00

Yaw... back wif me... 18 days have passed for this new year 2010. Karena uda lama ga pake bhs english, da ga tralu confi buad tulis pake eng haha. So apa yg telah saia lakukan dalam 18 hari ini? a lot is the answer, I just came back from my trip to Surabaya-Jakarta yesterday. Saia kesana dengan tujuan ngikutin bokap for his bussiness meeting and learn about bussiness life... yeah it was awesome, but I dont know whether I'm ready for that working and bussiness life or not, but let's try our best... and 1 more thing, Surabaya n Jakarta adalah tmpt yg menyenangkan (selain macet nya of course), eat a lot and see different places everyday... love this trip...

So 18 hari ini gw isi waktu dengan belajar hal2 ttg hidup, and more to bussiness, liad2 gmana cara orang meeting and melobi, berbicara, bersikap dll... berat buad di praktek kan but worth to try and learn... hm.. khabisan ide, padahal banyak yg mo di ketik kemarin... gpp la permulaan yg da cukup bagus di awal tahun ini... do better for the rest of the year....

Oh yeah ada kabar bagus, gw da bs menghilangkan pikiran2 yg krang menyenangkan walaupun masih ada bbrp pikiran yg menempel... I know I have to move forward... perlu melangkah ke depan dan meninggalkan yg lama... Its hard but I noe I can do it... ga mgkn kt meratapi sebuah batu terus2an dan berharap batu itu akan hilang tiba2 kalau kita tidak mengambil batu itu dan melemparnya jauh2 agar dy menghilang... but we noe da stone will be there somewhere tp tidak ada di depan kita lagi...

Ok then, too much to type for 1st post here... Ok Happy New year again guys...
May all beings be well and happy always... especially u all...
I miss Cikenz D'Gondelz so much, hope we can meet again soon... Miss ya guys...

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Post no.150 Last post of 2009

2009-12-31T01:02:00.000+08:00

Yeape as I said before, this will be my last post for 2009 and will continue wif new post in 2010. So 30 Desember 2009, persiapan untuk BBQ tgl 31 malam sudah di rencanakan, 4 orang: Jimz, Eva, Helen dan Nuri berkmpl di 88 dan shopping besar2an, beli makanan buad di panggang, persiapan nya gmana dan akhir na keliling2 pekanbaru cari barang + MERCUN tidak di lpakan (ada yg besar tp ga kebeli).

So sblm new year ada bbrp resolusi yg sudah ku tetapkan :
1. Be a better man for myself, FAMILY and FRIENDS of course.
2. Get job after graduation.
3. Still stick to my plan to go around the world.
4. GET HD's for all my subjects for last sem (I'll try my best)
5. Will not hesistate anymore, I want to be able to make a choice for me, my self.

I think I'll start with dat 5 first, eventough I have a lot but lets keep it first.

OK before I'm off, HAPPY NEW YEAR 2010 guys, May this year brings joy and pleasure for all of us. HAPPY NEW YEAR.

1 more post and 2 more days

2009-12-30T01:10:00.002+08:00

1 post lagi, akan membuat genap 150 post total untuk akhir tahun ini, suatu jumlah yang menurut ku lmayan banyak. So, 2 hari lagi sudah new year, smua da siap? gmana dengan new year resolution masing2? sudah ada? kalo saia masih di rangkum, soon slesai n semoga bisa di jalankan YEAY, be optimist.

Beberapa hari sebelum new year, semakin sibuk dengan urusan toko, since mereka akan melakukan yg namanya tutup buku so kita ikutan meeting, pergi nagih, ke bank dan laen2, lmayan sbuk but so FUN, mengisi waktu dengan kesibukan itu menyenangkan. Besok hari rabu dan tanggal 30, besok seharian sudah ada rencana, dari pagi pergi servis motor untuk persiapan malam tahun baru dan siang nya berkumpul bersama teman2 untuk membahas acara n kegiatan malam Old n New, yeah...

Beberapa hari ini saia merasa lebih santai, beberapa pemikiran yg buruk sudah tidak terlalu terpikir oleh ku, dengan mengisi waktu ternyata otak akan bekerja dengan sangat menyenangkan, kita bisa fokus dan bisa memikirkan sesuatu lebih terarah, yeay...

ok lah, 1 more post mungkin besok or 31, let see... Countdown start for NEW YEAR....
cya guys and as usual... Take Care
Jimz Chan

Another day of my journey

2009-12-28T13:20:00.005+08:00

kemarin adalah hari minggu, di mana biasa nya hari minggu adalah hari yg paling menyenangkan bagi orang2 kantor, since mereka libur buat sehari dan bs menghabiskan waktu bersama keluarga. but for me, hari yang agak kurang menyenangkan walaupun 1/2 hari nya adalah hari yang menyenangkan.

so apa yg saia lakukan sharian? di mulai dari hal yang menyenangkan which is tidur pagi.... yep saia bobo sampe hampir 12 jam, puas banget uda lama ga bs bobo selama itu~~~ then siang nya hujan so ga bs kemana2 walaupun uda rencana mo maen badminton, tp yah apalah boleh buat ga jade kemana2. Seharian di depan laptop n nonton bbrp film hmm... saia merasa hari minggu itu sangat panjang n menyenangkan haha

Sore nya, papa n mama datang ajak keluar keliling dan makan malam bareng. Jalan2 nya GJ jg, ke perkampungan gt, keluar kota haha n akhir na berhenti buat beli sayur di daerah perkampungan ntah dmana, liad na seh ijo banget sayur na tp ternyata cuci na di selokan *mo ngakak pas liad muka mom* tp gpp akhir na di beli jg 2 ikad kangkung~~~ lmyan d ada kangkung buat bsok haha

Makan malam sangat enak, spt biasa saia makan ga tanggung2, cman 3 piring nasi + 3 potong ayam~~~ nyum~~ *di jamin smakin gendud n makmur* haha. So yg menyenangkan abis, yg krang menyenangkan datang, wa terima sms yg agak buat shock haha but gpp d bisa di atasi.... nah itu lah hari2 sblm taon baru 2010, journey yg menyenangkan since wa ke kampung2 haha da lama ga jalan2 gelo gini ma dad haha

Ok next kita lanjutin besok lg~~~
Take Care
Jimz Chan

Christmas day

2009-12-25T21:03:00.001+08:00

Hi guys, Hows ur Christmas day? Must be fun right~~~ Saia juga punya Christmas yg lumayan special, di mulai dari pagi yang cerah bangun pagi dengan sakit kepala karena krang bo2 na but its ok, bersiap2 dan ntn film sampe jam 11 pergi ke MP (MalPekanbaru).

Nah ini baru pertama x na kt pergi ke MAL laen na dengan naek BUS haha, x ini kita naek METRO BUS di pekan haha. So sudah kmpl2 kt jalan d naek bus dgn rute yg aneh haha, then siap tuh kt sampe di SKA kira2 jam 1, n makan siang dsana haha. Sbener nya keliling2 n merusuh di SKA sangat menyenangkan haha.

Malam nya ada "Christmas Party" di Restaurant Apollo, menyenangkan sekali, Christmas Spirit na sangat kental banget haha

Uda ah,next lagi baru lanjut haha TAke C

Christmas Eve

2009-12-24T19:47:00.002+08:00

Hi guys, sebelum na saia ucapkan dl, Merry Christmas all~~~
Tonight is Christmas Eve, pada lagi ngapaen nech? smoga mengisi waktu dengen bae n fun

Yups, sudah lama ga update blog, so x nech update pake bhasa Indonesia aja, so saia da plang slama 3 minggu and soon bakalan jade 4 minggu a.k.a. 1 bulan haha, 1 bulan ini banyak hal yg terjadi, hal2 yg membuat saia semakin dewasa, semakin aware akan hal2 sensitive yang selama ini tidak pernah saia pikirkan, its good for me though~~

Sudah lama tidak nge-blog, x ini kekurangan ide mo ngisi apa....
Tiba-tiba teringat ini Chirstmas pertama yang saia rayakan di Hometown sejak 3 Tahun trakhir ini, since last 2 years di rayakan di benua lain terus, Di Sydney-Australia, negri kangguru ini sangat unik dalam merayakan Natal mereka~~ Orang2 sangat menikmati suasana Christmas Eve and I'm glad that I'm one of them. Tahun lalu di rayakan di Orlando-USA, bersama teman2 menikmati makan malam istimewa, dan menghabiskan waktu bersama + ada bbrp tmen dari negri Paman Sam ini jg ikut merayakan bareng2, so FUN~~~

Tahun ini, hmm mungkin akan menjadi malam natal yang agak different, x ini dirayakan sendiri dan di hometown, tp besok malam akan ada acara bersama temen2 hihi, cant wait for that~~~

Hmm, sekian dulu dech, akan di update lagi dengan berita2 seru yg lain na, so mari kita akhiri dengan mengucapkan: "Merry Christmas Guyz".

Ps: Miss all of my friends, hope we can celebrate all seasons together~~~
Take care
Jimz Chan

End of November

2009-11-30T13:09:00.002+08:00

Sorry guys coz I havent update this blog lately, due to my "busy" schedule and a lot of activities with D'Gondelz. So where should I start? since I finished my exams on 12 November few weeks ago, I enjoy my short holiday before my last presentation on 19Th November, but in the end everything turns according to my plan n it was successful... so happy at that moment. Speaking about exams, the results will comes out on 3rd December if I'm not mistaken, so I pray for all people to be ready for the worst and to be happy for the BEST~~~ ;)

On 20th of November, me and some Ciken D'Gondelz went to Penang for short trip which is 3 nights and 4 days... cool trip and it was so FUN, we took a lot of pictures but I cant show it here coz too many of them haha... then back from Penang, I spend my time and Money at KL and Sunway... I think this holiday is the most expensive holiday wif friends but no worries, I enjoy it haha...

nothing much to say here, just wanna type that "I'm going back to Pekan tomorrow" yeay... I havent go back since last 2 chinese new year i think? around that, so I'm looking forward for tomorrow and wanna see how Pekanbaru is changed, i wonder haha... but On 2nd Dec I'm going to Surabaya for short trip wif my dad, business trip should I say haha... but its ok, I'm gonna enjoy it...

ok now time to pack everything... Cya guys...
and Prepare for KARAOKE later...

Jimz Chan

Simple, yet Complicated

2009-11-03T01:14:00.003+08:00

Hi I'm back with my blog, I realize that I haven really blogging since last 1 month but that is not because I don't have things to type here but the reason is simple, I don't have enough time to think and pour every thought of mine.... I realize in this one month I experienced a lot of feelings, situations and a lot of things that change small part of me.

Time flies so fast... its already 1 month and I just finish my 1st exam yesterday.... I cant say that is one diff exam but I have high expectation from that subject, so I cant afford to lost a single mark... I hope I can get the result that I wanted.... My second exam is 9th, which is one week from now but I really scared, I'm not sure if one week is enough for this subject but... never say give up and I have to keep trying~~~ so wish me luck to slay this second exam~~~

The reason why I choose the title "Simple, yet Complicated" is because I'm not sure how things work for me... I feel its just a simple thing, looks so easy to do, easy to understand but the fact, I cant even do a single thing... suddenly it becomes so complicated, so scary and it force me to stay away and hide my self in my own false thought...

how to become one brave person that able to face, understand and do it? I know I have to decide something like this in the future or even past, but I just keep running from it and now I know the time to decide it will come soon, how to decide? I still don't know... this decision will change my life as whole and maybe will change me as personality? I cant say or promise anything but that time will eventually come soon...

Yup even tough I have to think bout it but the time will come by it self, so now I only have to focus on my exam... as what I used to say: "First thing First~~~" so... Exam is more important now...

I have a lot of things to type here, but due to time, limit, privacy issues, and some not relevant reasons, I have to stop by now... and continue some time in the future, maybe tomorrow, day after... or let see....

wan an guys... but before off....

GOOD LUCK for all people who have
EXAMS tomorrow and today!!!

Nites...

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Exam Update....

2009-10-29T23:54:00.003+08:00

sorry coz I haven update or 1/2 of semester... really sorry but I'll try again~~~

public class Exams

{

public static void whileExams(Study study, Effort effort)

{

System.out.println("Exams is Coming: What should I do???");

for(int date=now; date <>

{

if(study <>

{

study = study + target + effort;

effort++; study++; concentrate++;

sleep--; play--;

}

else if (study == effort)

{effort++; concentrate++;}

else

{study++; effort++; concentrate++;}

if(sleep == tooTired)

{

sleep++;

if(tooMuchSleep)

{whileExams(study,effort);}

else

{System.out.println("Time to Continue Study");}

}

public static void main(String[]args)

{

whileExams(study,effort);

System.out.println("Good Luck Everyone ");

System.out.println("Wish All da Best...");

}

Good Luck guys... Study Smart!!! and Study Hard!!!

Jia You!!!

Take Care

Jimz Chan

Mid-Break Updates

2009-10-04T22:23:00.003+08:00

End of mid break... yeah right tomorrow we will start our week 11 in Monash for 2nd semester in 2009, yeah... its sucks coz holidae is just end... Let me review some of our activities for this mid break... Most of my times I spend it with my assignments and stay in Monash Uni. Start from Monday that I have to submit my 2nd AI assignment, I sit at home whole day in order to finish it and I realize that I dint do well for that (eventough the marks haven come out yet).

The next day until wednesday I sit at Monash Library to catch up my works, so.. I can say I have good progress for that 2 days....

Next is Karaoke Day + Movie day + Lantern Festival... yeah... Thursday is the day that all people wait in this week... 14 People go to Movie and Karaoke together... yeay.. we watch "Tsunami" and Karaoke at RedBox... But for Lantern festival... not all people can join, but no prob... we had a lot of fun... Thanks again guys...

Friday... also 1 of my Great day in this week.... Sit at library from morning until late afteroon... then I have to leave library, joining wif my friend we go for refreshing and I can say this one is one day that I will remember haha... But at the end of the day when I back at 23.00 at night, the electricity is off, theres some problem wif the fuse and cables, so I sleep without AC or fan... so HOT wakaka...

Saturday... usual Monash again.. and MoonCake Festival at SJBA, I'm helping people there and serve the kids... yeay... knowing Jimmy Jr. is one of my new experience... haha... I had fun there wif my friends, taking pictures and watching performances haha... GREAT!!!

Today Sunday... hm.. desprate doing my works at Monash U, I dont know but I need to rush doing my others assignments haha... I think dats da report I can write here... Type again some times...

Take CAre
Jimz Chan

Monash Ball~~~

2009-09-26T01:19:00.003+08:00

Not sure whether I'm the first one who post the blog about Monash Ball... I dunno how to start but today is one of busy and fun day... but I'm not touching my assignment (feel guilty lolz). Today I bought new coat and actually I wanted to wear coat for Monash ball but after rushing and pick the wrong coat I back home... picking wrong coat in size resulting me cant wear it to ball... Its ok coz I think I'm looking good (maybe not the nicest but still nice), oh yeah today I also have my hair cut... yeay prepare for ball haha n I like my new hair coz I think I never cut this style before lolz...

I dunno how to explain about what happened in Monash ball tonight but me and friends have a lot of fun and took a lot of pictures for sure... through the night I have one thought that a bit bothering me... I'm not sure what to do but everything is just OK haha.... about food... high class food but the portion just small haha... not really full lolz.... haha. Another thing is about the dance... we cant really dance the dance we practice before haha... such a waste but its ok at least I can learn and next time if u want to dance, I'm ready haha...

I dunno wat to type anymore... just end it here... and wanna say Thanks guys.... I'm waiting for next party haha...
Take care
Jimz Chan

Monash Ball is coming~~~

2009-09-25T04:17:00.004+08:00

Yow feeling exited until all my muscles feel very weird and this only happen to me once before.... but few days ago I felt it again, I feel very exited waiting for the ball which is TODAY!!! yeay.... I dunno how to explain but my heart beat so fast, my muscles feel stiff, and just cant calm my self , very exited haha....

Yups I dunno what I'm exited for but I definitely feel it... waiting to see all my friends to dress up the best of them and see a lot of pretty girls and handsome boys haha... cant wait to see my friends... and also they will have ballroom dance, speaking of it I train wif some of my friends 4 times in this past 2 or 3 weeks, all of them are wonderful and exited waiting for ball like me (as I know of course). I'm not sure how we dance or will we dance but when it comes... I'm ready wakaka...

Hm... wait for next post about the ball, hope it will be the funnest coz this is the last ball we do together when we all in Monash, maybe next time we will have another but will be different environment and different style =).

Yup now 4.22am and I'm still online... cant do my AI Assignments I run to Heroes... watch it and how to say it... it still good as before.. yeay.. waiting for episode 3 now... haha and my assignment... I just finish 1/3 from all maybe almost 1/2 but let see how it goes... tomorrow night gonna be one long night... haha...

Let's sleep... Nitez all and let's enjoy the "Monash Ball"
Take Care
JimzChan

Vincent (Starry Starry Night) Lyrics

2009-09-24T12:06:00.002+08:00

Starry starry night, paint your palette blue and grey
Look out on a summer's day with eyes that know the darkness in my soul
Shadows on the hills, sketch the trees and the daffodils
Catch the breeze and the winter chills, in colors on the snowy linen land

Now I understand what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they did not know how, perhaps they'll listen now

Starry starry night, flaming flowers that brightly blaze
Swirling clouds in violet haze reflect in Vincent's eyes of china blue
Colors changing hue, morning fields of amber grain
Weathered faces lined in pain are soothed beneath the artist's loving hand

Chorus:
For they could not love you, but still your love was true
And when no hope was left in sight, on that starry starry night
You took your life as lovers often do,
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you

Starry, starry night, portraits hung in empty halls
Frameless heads on nameless walls with eyes that watch the world and can't forget.
Like the stranger that you've met, the ragged man in ragged clothes
The silver thorn of bloody rose, lie crushed and broken on the virgin snow

Now I think I know what you tried to say to me
How you suffered for you sanity How you tried to set them free
They would not listen they're not listening still
Perhaps they never will.

Nice song dat I found inside my IPod and I never realize it.... This song is made for Vincent Van Goh if I'm not mistake, The melody is very touching for me and the lyrics have really deep meaning (at least for me), if u wanna listen u can click here "Vincent-Aiza". Enjoy the show =)

Jimz Chan

The End To Loneliness

2009-09-22T11:38:00.001+08:00

There’s a man, so alone
That there’s no one by his side
Except for rats and bugs that visit
In the middle of the night

And this man was just sitting
On that chair just next to you
But he walked away when there was no one
Whom he could talk to

So we live each day pretending
That this man would be okay
Cause it would be such a hassle
Since he lives so far away

It might not have occurred to you
That he lost his faith in Love
He could be one of Us
So lost in loneliness

So my brothers and my sisters
Can you care for such a man
Just extend your caring nature
Lend your ears and lend a hand

Cause when searching for the Truth
We need good honest simple friends
Help that man, before it’s the end

Source: "IGemz - The End To Loneliness", 2008

Current~~~

2009-09-22T01:03:00.003+08:00

Current state of my head, body and mind now is... terrible. I dont know coz this is maybe my first time like this, my eyesight become worst, if I read long posts, or an article at my monitor, my eyesight become blur for one or two seconds, I hope nothing happened to my eyes coz it feel really itchi, hurt and its happened more and more often... huff... I hope I'm okay... some people said I'm too tired but I just wanna believe it is haha... choi, talk bout other thing haha...

If people ask me whether I'm stress coz my works, maybe I'll say yes, but its ok, the problem is just I'm afraid that I cannot finishing my works, dats the reason I become more and more stress.... A lot of thoughts come to my head calling to be answered but my brain just such a small brain, how can I solve everything that comes to me at once? The best thing that I can do is select and finish one by one and for u guys which I can called as unsolved problems, please go away for moment and after that I'm gonna settle my business wif u guys k? (crazy thought)

Chan's blog talk about dream, yeah I have dream too for today, this morning I supposed to wake up at 9 when Edie call me, but I decided to sleep again to finish my dream. I dream bout "REAL" feeling, how to say it I'm not sure but I'm planning to type it as story but let's see coz I only finish 1/10 of the story and it takes me 3 or 4 long paragraphs... weird dream but I'm glad I have that dream haha...

Listening "Stay the Same" by Joey Mcintyre now... one of my fav song that sing about how people should stay the same and others will accept him/her for what they are, love it... haha... I have a lot to write but dun think it appropriate to write here.... so end of post...

P.S. my head is spinning around now... lalala~~~~

Take care
Jimz Chan

Dancing is FUN~~~

2009-09-19T00:12:00.003+08:00

Coz some of my friends talk about dance and ball, so here am I to talk something bout that also. Today is my 3rd time come into dance class which I found really COOL!!! Cool because actually I never feel so much fun, exited, happy while dancing but not for this class. Today I learn to dance "Waltz" which one of dance that I dream to learn, since I was a child whenever I saw ballroom dance, most of them are waltz and it really cool when the dancers move in synchrony and do everything together beautifully.

Ok so today I learn bout waltz and honestly 1 1/2 hours practice is not enough for me, I want more... now I think bout it, last two years I learnt a bit about "Ballet Dance" to perform at my cousin's Wedding Party and honestly I feel a bit nervous and weird coz my partner is small kid around 13 or 14 years old (she is really good dancers), maybe dats makes me feel not really comfortable, nervous and shy when dancing, but anyway now I feel like really want to dance... Now I'm dance with my friend as my partner (Ameq), feel more comfortable and also my other friends also dance with me, have no feeling bout nervous and shy anymore haha.... I wanna dance more and It's really Fun.

I want to talk about "Rumba" but its ok I need to make this post short so I can go sleep earlier, next topic is about "RAIN", yeah its been raining these two days but its ok I like when its raining but I hate when I need to get back, or go somewhere else in the rain... (actually I'm just afraid to be sick lolz). so because of that rain, these two days I go back home with wet body, cant say really wet but still I'm wet coz of rain...

Really want to write more here... but need to sleep eventough I do nothing for my project tonight, not because I dont want to do but I need to read a lot baout JMF, and I found out that I dont understand the example, so I will need my friend to explain hopefully he want if not gonna spend my nights again haha...

Ok now really need to sleep coz I can keep typing till morning lolz...
Take Care
Jimz Chan

Karaoke night...

2009-09-17T01:05:00.005+08:00

Hi, another post from me, I dont know but I just like to write blog eventough I know my writing skill is very bad but who cares. Actually today I have nothing special to talk about but lets find one like usual.

Today we celebrate Chan's bdae, from surprise party which is failed coz Chan already prepare himself for our surprise attack, but not too bad since we have a lot of fun at dinner time. So the party was so fun and we have good time together. Back from dinner, I have my whole night full with my singing session, my karaoke wif my average voice (hope my roommates not feeling annoyed coz of my voice, and if they did ya sorry coz too bad I want to sing lolz). Currently singing "The way you look at me" by Christian Bautista.

I had my short chat about today wif my friend, and it turns to talk about my love life which I hate to talk about it wif others. I used to keep it for my own, my own properties so just can say, sorry coz I cant share this one. Honestly everytime I think about that I end up with disappointed, I dont have words to explain why but maybe its happy at the beginning, but in the end I oways feel stupid, disappointed wif my ownself, dats one reason why I never mention bout it except now? haha...

Other thing is today is already 17 September which is My Dad's Birthday, so...

Happy Birthday Dad...
May U be Well and Happy Always,
Take care and Love you~~~
(Gonna call u this afternoon yeay~~~)
Jimz Chan

Now I'm planning to read about JMF (Java Media Framework) for my project, really scared bout the project. The supervisor ask me to implement using webcam and he lend me Logitech webcam with 2Megapixel which is COOL and NICE!!! but stll its remind me to implement the project soon lolz....

Oh yeah I have plan to make one day of our mid-break as Karaoke day... I'm not sure they want to join me but I'm gonna send the invitation to my friends, yeay.... ok now have to read some papers before sleep... tomorrow will standby whole day at library since I have no class tomorrow... ok then..

Take care
Jimz Chan

7 Things to be done!!!

2009-09-16T00:20:00.004+08:00

7 things in my list that must be done in two weeks time and all of them are my assignments.
1. Project
2. Web System 1 Task 8 n 9
3. Web System 3 task 6-9
4. Assignment 2 AI
5. Assignemnt 3 AI
6. Web System1 Quiz 5-8
7. Web System3 Quiz 1-8

Huff... all of them are so hard, I'm not sure I can finish all or not. Honestly speaking I'm feeling a lot of stress, not showing it but that feeling is THERE!!! I cant do some of the works at home, due to no software problem. Some works I want to do but still need to wait for Supervisor approval, The rest... dunno how to start... feel so sad.. but what can I do? Complaining? yeah I did it... but at the same time, I think bout how to finish it... and I quote one quotation lately that I cant remember from where think Uncle's blog and it really inspire me to not give up, it sounds like this: "I have passed this before, So I'm sure I can do it AGAIN!!!"

Having a lot of things to be done really gives me pressure and make my feeling and emotion not stable. I really easy to affected by something nowadays, I can easily get angry, jealous, emo, insulted? but not only negative feeling, I also easy to feel missing, love someone, and its makes me really sensitive bout those all feelings... hm.. cant say it so bad but I used to keep those feelings coz I think its not really important showing them all haha... at least makes me more human now lolz...

Now currently facing AI assignment that ask me to create an agent's brain to defeat my lecturer's program in "GOMOKU Games" lolz.. If u guys wanna noe what is this games or wanna try, click at the word above. How to program one brain if I cant win at least 50% when facing beginner AI?? lolz... need to practice of course haha...

Have alot to write but just keep it for now, maybe tomorrow? just wait for my next post~~~ last but not least.... for one of my best friend who having his 21th birthday today...

Happy 21th Birthday Chandra Fernandez
Wish you all the best!!!
May U be Well and Happy Oways...
Friend Forever~~~

Take care guys,
Jimz Chan

What to do?

2009-09-12T21:40:00.003+08:00

I dun realize this is my 4th blog for today even tough I'm not publishing the second and third blog coz feel its too private to publish.

So what should I do now? feel lazy to do all things and I know I have to start one of them soon... how?? can I have my lazy time more longer? haha... I just want to play and relax.. wanna c old pics, wanna watch movie, listen music, karaoke, play guitar... a lot man... haha...

Not going to Malaca makes me fill my day wif pyramid shopping, and watch movie at home... until evening when me and alex stay at home and want to have dinner... we cook everything we can as dinner... quiet fun and u guess what, it makes me and Alex really full haha use all the ingredients at home as my dinner quiet nice idea haha...

Hm.. let see if I still can produce more blogs for today haha... Thinking what should I do? or blog again? lolz... Take care guys...

Jimz Chan

When U tried your best but its not like what u expected....

2009-09-12T20:49:00.002+08:00

Expectation is one word that gives good and bad result/effect at the same time. Good result is when what you expects are coming true, and bad result is when what you want are not coming true. So why suddenly I'm talking about this? Its about me who always have expect something good to be happen, something that I wanted to be true but in the end its just in my imagination, what I want will never always come true. Few things for example, I really wanted to go to Malaca with my friend but in the end my projects held me back and I cant even do anything bout it, eventough I have spent my nights to make sure it done... but in the end I cant force my self to go...

Second, this is general things when people tell me bout something, before they finish, my mind will oways think about how fun, how nice if its happen and I'm starting to put my expectation of that something to be happend which sometimes its silly, I'm hoping about something that not even 1% will happen which makes me feel suffer, hate, sad in the end...

Maybe people said that having such expectation is good thing and I agree with it, but can I think wisely before put my expectation? or is it worth to putting such high expectation ? I dunno why and how to be wise and patient before jump to conclusion in my mind... huff.. maybe I think too much or not? because I cant go to Malaca and start to blaming my self? start to feel angry and hate? I hope I'm not... I'm just... ok lets end this before it start to go somewhere I cant reach...

Take care
Jimz Chan

Hungry, Tired and Sleepy

2009-09-11T05:09:00.003+08:00

3 feelings that attacking me now are hungry, tired and sleepy... currently is 5.10 am in da morning... not really a big news seeing me awake at this time, yeah coz I'm still doing my project and now waiting for the loops to finish... hoam... these few days I sleep like this, feel guilty to my body, and hope it wont give me problems like before haha...

Still loading.... so let's continue, I dun really have things to say here but let's make one... hm.. oh yeah tomorrow most of my friends will have their time to go to Malaca Trip... I want to go and join them as well but I'm not sure whether I can do it or not and that is one of my reason why I haven sleep till now and try to rushing doing my project haha... If I can finish it before end of today, the chances of me to go is more than 50 or 60% lolz... really wanna go coz I have waited for this event since last sem lolz...

hmm now what should I say again? just now they pass through my brain but before I can catch them they disappear... so I think wont have anyting to add... oh yeah today is Colin bdae so...

Happy Birthday Carolina Lestary
Wish ya all da best!!!
May U be well and Happy Oways~~~

Ok I think my program will finish loading soon... continue2... sleep soon at 6? or not sleep? lolz...
Take care
Jimz Chan

When you missing them....

2009-09-08T00:32:00.005+08:00

Yow guys, Do you ever feel missing someone so much??? when you couldn't reach them in phone, sms or basically no news from them? Yes I do... now I dunno why for some reasons I miss some people, I miss my parents and I havent give my news to them this week... which mean I need to do it today coz I just want to chat wif my mom... wanna talk about a lot of things... I have a lot of things to talk wif her and for my dad... I want to think about something to prank him coz long time dun tease him haha...

Yeah now I miss my family a lot... wish I can get early holiday and go home?? but I wont do that haha wanna noe why? I also dunno why haha... actually besides of my family, there is someone that I miss right now (not gonna tell u who but this person is one of important person for me ). I dont know why but I just suddenly feel miss that person... I try to contact that person but it seems useless I dunno whether that person busy or not but I cant get any news from that person. I hope I can get the news soon~~~

Yow just as reminder my assignments and project still far from DONE and as usual I still need to do it lolz... btw now gonna sleep now... oh yeah before I go sleep just wanna say how true this statement is "Cowo mungkin aja ber-genit2 ria sepanjang hari, tp sebelum mereka tidur mereka selalu memikirkan cewe yg bner2 mereka sayang." I realize that is true haha thanks Chan, dats statement from ur notes lolz...

ok la Good nite guys, lastly => "Jimz Mizz Family & U~~~" (Who is U? I hope u guys not think of wrong person lolz)

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Don't Worry Be Happy (current song before posting)

2009-09-07T03:01:00.004+08:00

I'm not sure what I wanted to write here but somehow I just feel like I really want to write something... So firstly wanna say Happy Birthday to Monica today, Wish ya all da best and success in every way...

Currently waiting for my program to process the data which comparing 350k data with the other 350k which really eat all my memories in my desktop (my compie become really2 slow and it start processing the data since 10-15 minutes ago =.=") So with nothing to do, I just feel and see my self as current human being... I have realize something for this semester, not like previous semester that I ever had, this semester I really Super Duper Mega Ultimately BUZY... I dunno what I do, what is my plan until my schedule really full...

The compact schedule this semester really isolate me from some of my old friends and I realize it since I only have more time with my assignments, projects n other stuff, even my sister... sorry because I'm too busy and I cant do anything with it... this semester I rarely have time to meet her, not like last semester.. no matter how busy I am, I oways have time to meet her eventough it means once or twice a week... not like now.. T.T sad and pity my self coz cant manage my time properly.. huff....

Yups Type almost half page already yet I havent find the title for this post... should I keep it blank? or what? its 3.09 am now and my mind is still wondering I dunno where... Another thing that I realize is... I always feel stress, when see my project my head and body become lazy and afraid of the result of this project... doing other assignments also stress... I dunno when I'm not stress... even with my friends, sometimes my mind still think about the works that have to be done eventough my face might not showing it.. I dunno how but somehow with my friends I can always show the best me, maybe I oways want to look strong, great, with no problem and easy relax in front of people... haha.. but I noe I am lolz...

Ok still have a lot but if write all maybe I will stop when my batery is empty or suddenly I "pingsan" lolz... still waiting for my program to be done eventough it showing no sign to stop processing lol... Nitez all..

Take Care
Jimz chan

Kekurangan Wanita

2009-09-06T21:33:00.001+08:00

ketika TUHAN Menciptakan wanita , DIA lembur
pada hari ke-6.
Malaikat datang dan bertanya " Mengapa Begitu
lama TUHAN? TUHAN menjawab "Sudah kah
engkau liat semua detail yg AKU buat untuk
menciptakan mereka?"

2 tangan ini harus bisa dibersihkan, tetapi
bahannya bukan dr plastik.Setidaknya terdiri dari
200 bagian, yang bisa digerakkan dan berfungsi
baik untuk segala jenis makanan.Mampu menjaga
banyak anak saat bersamaan,punya pelukan yang
dapat menyembuhkan sakit hati dan
keterpurukan. .dan semua dilakukannya dengan 2
tangan ini.

Malaikat itu Takjub.." Hanya dengan 2
tangan?...impossible!!

Oh...Tidak!! AKU akan menyelesaikan ciptaan hari
ini,karena ini adalah ciptaan favoritKU.
"Oh ya...dia juga akan mampu menyembuhkan
dirinya sendiri dan bisa bekerja selama 18 jam
sehari.

Malaikat mendekat dan mengamati bentuk wanita
ciptaan TUHAN itu.
"Tapi Engkau membuatnya begitu Lembut
TUHAN?"

"Yah...Aku membuatnya begitu lembut,tapi engkau
belum bisa bayangkan kekuatan yang AKu berikan
agar mereka dapat mengatasi banyak hal yang luar
biasa?"

"Dia bisa berpikir?" tanya malaikat

TUHAN menjawab: " Tak hanya berpikir,dia mampu
bernegoisasi."

Malaikat itu menyentuh dagunya. . .
" TUHAN ENGKAU buat ciptaan ini kelihatnya lelah
dan rapuh! Seolah terlalu banyak beban baginya."

" Itu bukan lelah atau rapuh....itu AIR
MATA".
"Untuk apa?"tanya malaikat

Tuhan melanjukan : " AIR MATA adalah salah satu
cara dia mengekspresikan kegembiraan,
kegalauan, Cinta, kesepian, penderitaan dan
kebahagian

" ENGKAU memikirkan segala sesuatunya.Wanita
ciptaanMU ini akan sungguh menakjubkan!"

YA Mesti. . . !
Wanita ini akan mempunyai kekuatan mempesona
bagi laki-laki.

Dia dapat mengatasi beban bahkan laki-laki
Dia Mampu menyimpan kebahagian dan
pendapatnya sendiri.

Dia mampu tersenyum bahkan saat hatinya
menjerit.Mampu menyanyi saat menangis,
menagis saat terharu, terharu saat tertawa,
bahkan tertawa saat ketakutan.

Dia berkorban demi orang yang dicintainya.Dia
tidak menolak kalo melihat yang lebih baik.Dia
menerjunkan dirinya untuk keluarganya.Dia
membawa temannya yang sakit untuk berobat.

- CINTANYA TANPA SYARAT -

Dia menangis saat melihat anaknya adalah
pemenang.Dia girang dan bersorak saat melihat
temannya tertawa.Dia begitu bahagia mendengar
kelahiran.Hatinya begitu sedih saat mendengar
berita sakit dan kematian Tetapi dia selalu punya
kekuatan untuk mengatasi hidup, dia tahu bahwa
sebuah ciuman dan pelukan dapat menyembuhkan
luka.

" Hanya 1 Kekurangan dari Wanita "

DIA LUPA BETAPA BERHARGANYA DIA...

Source: "Somewhere from internet", 2009

I'm Yours~~~

2009-09-05T00:33:00.003+08:00

Yow... seeing my title will make some of my friends asking who is dat? why u sounds so happy? or u have gf now? haha the answer is nope still single but I dunno why this song just repeated in my head again and again and makes me feel happy. Not only that songs that makes me happy but also there something that makes me very happy... Coz I can show some of my feeling to someone that I noe that it will really hard to let them noe...

After I try to let them noe what I feel (even tough it really hard...) its really makes me happy and relief, at least they noe what I feel to them (ups let me clear this, its not like what u think lolz). Even tough now I'm struggling with my assignments and project... it cant stop me to feel so happy like this... "I wish I can be there", place where they need me and I need them too... haha... another words from me... lalala~~~

Tonight maybe the last night to be free and play, coz start from tomorrow I need to (like or not) to do my projects, the due date is near and need to do report too... and I only can trying to be happy like today and face the works haha...

The other thing is am I the only person who feel the time pass "REALLY QUICK"??? I dunno why but when I thought today is Sunday, the next thing I realize is today is already Saturday... swt... and this is already End of Week 7, next week is starting week 8 and my coding for project need to be done, what should I do? start doing it... CORRECT!!! but I dun even get idea to do it... I really scared when I think bout that... and its make me cant sleep for few nights... and makes me think bout thing that I hate... but ok today I want to feel happy till DROP!!! tomorrow let be tomorrow problem, wish I can stay and keep my happiness... hihi...

Times pass so Quick, one Happiness can be replaced so quickly with another sadness... but when there is sadness, there sure be GREAT Happiness!!! So Face it with all ur might... Jiayou Jimmy... and all my friends... ^^

Talk too much but still "I'm Yours~~~" lolz...
Nitez guys, Take care

Jimz Chan

Want to scream!!!!

2009-08-29T02:13:00.003+08:00

These few days or weeks I feel really lost, lost coz my assignments, works that have to be done, pressure bout projects and it seems that I only create new problems everyday every time. I dont know, I feel like this semester is really hard for me, I dunno why... I noe I can pass all of it but I feel a lot of things need to be done, and if I'm not doing it I dunno.....

Not only that, I feel that all things around me become worst and I dont know which part of it. I barely can sleep at nite, not like usual I just can sleep straight away when I touch my bed, and if I slept, I wish I have more time to sleep, more time to relax... sleep is the only time to relax for me... If I recall my life for now, I will say that I have no life... nothing to change, nothing to improve, just the same thing over and over again....

I dunno why but I feel really.... I dunno how to explain... but the thing that I really want to do is SCREAM OUT LOUD!!!! I want to scream till my voice disappear for a while... I want to hit things but... because I know all of that will give nothing to me except pain so I din do it... but my heart now feel so... miserable, horrible, confuse, and all kind of things attacking me...

I wish I have more time... I wish I have enough spirit to trough all of this things coz I know if I can survive this test... I can receive what I want... but for now I just wish that I have courage, patient and strong heart to endure all of this things....

Enough... feel more relieved after write this blog... eventough I still want to scream out loud (see my watch this is 2.22 am in da morning) which mean if I scream loudly most of ppl will come and kill me....

Gonna back to read some notes...

Take care
Jimz Chan

OK... start my 121st post..

2009-08-18T00:45:00.002+08:00

Ok I give up, actually I really wan to stop this blog but... I just cant... when I see people start to type their blog, read their blog I just feel like "I WANT" haha... dunno why... and actually why should I care if I write bout my self?? Its me that I'm talking about, there is no reason to make me feel like stop being my self wakaka...really, I realize now that I love bloggin haha...

So I think thats it for now... just want to start new post lolz.... nothing special today just feel a lot of things to do and less time to do it... but still far from GIVE UP!!! JIAYOU!!!!

P.S. Handle With Smile ;)

Take care
Jimz Chan

The last post?!!!

2009-08-16T01:56:00.002+08:00

Yuw guys... this is my 120th posts yeay, Just wondering should I stop publishing my blog?? I dunno suddenly across my mind coz I'm afraid I'm writing bunch of inappropriate things in my blog... either too private or too inrelevant with anything... haha... what do ya think?? Dunno maybe gonna stop publishing for now or forever? lolz...

Sleep!!! Night!!!
Jimz Chan

FRIM trip...

2009-08-16T01:38:00.002+08:00

As we planned yesterday... today is FRIM day... this is my 2nd time to FRIM but for different purposes, one for the sake of my project and now for refreshing and jungle trekking... feel so GREAT!!! We have jungle trekking + Canopy walk + play a while at waterfall... quiet nice place, love the air, the air is so FRESH!!! and I have opportunities to c a lot of new species and new things... some of them for my private research lolz...

So... compared with my last trekking, this is not the most difficult but also not the easiest... and lucky for me, I can finish and complete the walk haha... Grab a lot of pics but cant publish here, so find me at facebook or either one of my friends, then see the great nature of FRIM lolz...

Jungle trekking + Canopy walk + waterfall == TIRED!!! yeah... after do all of the activities, guess what... I barely have energy to wake... I sleep like... pig??!! maybe haha not snoring but just sleep with silence... lolz... back to home, I continue my sleep for another 2 or 2 1/2 hour lolz... feel so great!!! but still sleepy now...

At night, nothing to do just wait till 10pm at night and go to Pyramid to celebrate Edi's 21 Belated Birthday haha... I ran there from my house for 7 minutes, new record actually haha... with chan, both of us lolz... so actually wanna write this since 3 days ago but now... its ok... "HAPPY BIRTHDAY EDI!!!!" lolz....

ok now is 1.51 am, and I need to go sleep so tomorrow can wake early and do my stuff...
p.s. Hungry again.. lalala~~~

Take care
Jimz Chan

Another day with me~~~

2009-08-14T23:35:00.003+08:00

Yups another day with me, today as usual Friday, I have nothing to do except sit in front of computer do my works, but today I didn't do my works like what I'm planing to... end with do a lot of Relaxing stuff like read comics, play CS and go to Pyramid... yeah...

Today I got news from my family in Indonesia bout my cousin, yeah its a bad news for me and my famz... it make me learn and realize enough that our lives r just so tiny and fragile... I see how something bad really-really affecting others, how they react when they want to ignore, wanna run from the fact... Honestly I dunno what to say to confort them but silence... I assume u guys know what I meant and what news is dat so I need not type it here... I just wish everything will be ok eventough it will be so hard to some people in my family... may they be strong ;(

OK let's stop it, dun wan let u guys feel the same things haha... let change the topics... Today I have my hair cut... yeay.. but just simple cut to make it more neat and good looking than before (before it like a mess lolz) So here is the pic after cut... so what do u think?? lolz...

After dinner with edi, chan, har and fimtan we went to Jusco to shop some food... yeay... and I found out new way to shopping lolz... cant explain but here is da pics... smile if it funny and laugh if u happy seeing it lolz....

OK now need to debug my friend's code before go sleep... tomorrow wake earlier to go to FRIM... wish I can wake early lolz... Nitez guys...

Take care
Jimz Chan

Catch Up!!!

2009-08-14T01:02:00.002+08:00

Yow because I miss last nite blog, so.. I better catch up here n now... hm.. let me c... some topics that I wanna write yesterday... stuck at Monash doing project, watch proposal and sleep... haha dun really have things actually...

Since I just watch "Proposal" at cinema yesterday... my comment for da movie... is GREAT!!! Actually this is my 1st time watching the western drama movie at cinema... coz usually I oways watch action, comedy or horror movie at cinema... I must admit that the story is VERY GOOD!!! can give 8 from 10. The movie is about two people a man and a woman, we can say that the guy really really hate the girl, but the girl as his boss I dun think have special feeling (angry, hate or watever). The story tell us that no matter u hate someone, he/she maybe the one u love in the end, everything will change when someone want to try to open their heart and feel the joy with others.

Actually from the beginning of the movie... my mind is not really in da movie... my mind is somewhere else... coz the movie reminds me about long lost memories... cant tell but feel happy I can remember that haha... I wonder that can we be together eventough a lot of people, things or any obstacles appear before us to separate us?? is that what people call true love? haha... think too much... but I wish they were haha....

I think I have nothing to say bout today coz I only sit in front of computer for almost whole day trying to decode my own program haha... lucky I finish it and its work!!! I'm happy but in the same time I need to be ready to start my next step of project...!! JIAYOU!!! Oh yeah tomorrow plan is... do my others works and assignments... yeay... GANBATTE!!!

Think thats enough for some catch up!!! so.. wondering what will I do before going to slam my body to bed... haha...
Take care

Jimz Chan

Stress of Projects

2009-08-12T02:20:00.004+08:00

As final year students especially in Monash, for Computer Science, we need to do the Final Year Project. So as what I told u guys last time, I have one project and honestly I feel a lot of stress because of that... have no idea how to do the projects and feel so lost but tonight I have made some progress bout it... feel happy... tomorrow will do more and more... haha...

Currently listening to "Seperti yang kau Ingini" by Nikita coz I just watch last episode of "Buku Harian Nayla". Eventough people said the movie copy the idea from "1 Liter of Tears", yeah I must admit it but if you can see and observe from other point of view, they have good religious aspects, they teach people to believe and encourage people, by story and by the meaning of the story. I can say that both are good movies and I love both of them... I always can find good message when watching the movies...

Quote from my last post, I found that:

"Tahukah anda* kalau orang yang kelihatan begitu tegar
hatinya, adalah orang
yang sangat lemah dan butuh pertolongan?
*
Tahukah anda* kalau orang yang menghabiskan waktunya
untuk melindungi
orang lain adalah justru orang yang sangat butuh
seseorang untuk
melindunginya?"

Its quiet right, I can see some of my friends who looks exactly like this... and for the rest of the quotation, its quiet true... I wonder who make that truth statements... haha...

Think I need to go sleep, I have few sleepless night... will listen to some musics and then go sleep...

Take care
Jimz Chan

Tahukah Anda???

2009-08-11T10:51:00.000+08:00

*Dear Friends* ,
*
Tahukah anda* kalau orang yang kelihatan begitu tegar
hatinya, adalah orang
yang sangat lemah dan butuh pertolongan?
*
Tahukah anda* kalau orang yang menghabiskan waktunya
untuk melindungi
orang lain adalah justru orang yang sangat butuh
seseorang untuk
melindunginya?
*
Tahukah anda* kalau tiga hal yang paling sulit untuk
diungkapkan adalah :
Aku cinta kamu, maaf dan tolong aku
*
Tahukah anda* kalau orang yang suka berpakaian *warna
merah* lebih yakin
kepada dirinya sendiri?
*
Tahukah anda* kalau orang yang suka berpakaian *kuning
* adalah orang yang
menikmati kecantikannya sendiri?
*
Tahukah anda * kalau orang yang suka berpakaian *hitam
*adalah orang yang
ingin tidak diperhatikan dan butuh bantuan dan
pengertian anda?
*
Tahukah anda * kalau anda menolong seseorang,
pertolongan tersebut
dikembalikan dua kali lipat?
*
Tahukah anda* bahwa lebih mudah mengatakan perasaan
anda dalam tulisan
dibandingkan mengatakan kepada seseorang secara
langsung? Tapi tahukah
anda bahwa hal tsb akan lebih bernil ai saat anda
mengatakannya dihadapan
orang tsb?
*
Tahukah anda* kalau anda memohon sesuatu dengan
keyakinan, keinginan anda
tsb pasti dikabulkan?
*
Tahukah anda* bahwa anda bisa mewujudkan impian anda,
spt jatuh cinta,
menjadi kaya, selalu sehat, jika anda memintanya dengan
keyakinan, dan
jika anda benar2 tahu, anda akan terkejut dengan apa
yang bisa anda
lakukan.
*
Tapi jangan percaya semua yang saya katakan* , sebelum
anda mencobanya
sendiri, jika anda tahu seseorang yang benar2 butuh
sesuatu yg saya
sebutkan diatas, dan anda tahu anda bisa menolongnya,
anda akan melihat
bahwa pertolongan tsb akan dikembalikan dua kali lipat.

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Monday of 4th week in Monash

2009-08-11T00:25:00.002+08:00

Yeape today is 1st Monday of 4th week in Monash this semester... nothing much... just have usual day... wake up around 10 then go take bath and continue to walk to Monash from Tiara... far but let's count it as one exercise everyday... good for health...

Since I only have one hour class today so I spent all my time at my 2nd home which is Library... nothing much, see a lot of people and do my assignments... yeah if I think about my activities everyday... they all the same... sit in library and wait till night to come and fetch me home or wait till my stomach ask me to go back eat haha...

These few days I feel that I found my old long lost feeling... Feel about someone that I think it will only appear in da past... dunno how to conclude it but for now I just want to feel it and understand what it really is, not like last time, I try to ignore or accept any feeling that comes to me without knowing it... now I want to explore and really "feel" it so I know exactly what I want and what is that Feeling is... haha.... I want to feel all the feeling and explore it...

That is just a short sharing bout my days and my feeling... my brain full of works to do and have projects that conquer my brain... ok now back to sleeping time...

Take care guys... will see what is the result of that feeling haha...
Jimz Chan

Just to fill the day

2009-08-10T01:19:00.005+08:00

Ok actually I have no time to blog, but just put some words before I continue to read my material... uhf... Wanna clarify that what I wrote last nite is wrong, I din skip to go to temple today yeay.... but I have become aware that I'm not like others, when I'm happy maybe others will feel unhappy, so today I learn to be more aware about my surrounding and become more happy in that...

Gonna continue read some code then sleep so tomorrow can implement it... oh yeah my FYP still have no progress... wish me all the luck that can I get to finish this task...

Oh yeah Today I look and open my old picture (not really old) from when I was still in USA... feel that missing that time so much, wanna go back there again and enjoy all my time... and I also miss something from that time... but its past, nice to remember but past still past, lets make new memories that can be remembered ^^

"Wanna dream with you again... ^^", this the words that across my mind from no where, I dunno where is it come from but sound nice... haha...

Take care
Jimz Chan

Tired, Fun but Strange Day....

2009-08-09T00:14:00.005+08:00

Yeap... I'm right, What I said in my prev blog is really happened to me... I'm SO DAMN TIRED!!!! yeah today is one of the TIRED day for me... Ok start from this morning, I woke up at 6 something because me and hosmate have "Paintball Event", so we start to move from Tiara House 27 at 7.15 and arrived there around 7.30. Then Bro. Jin Hwa CS come and fetch us to the location which is near Zoo Negara called "Si Rimba".

Ok this is my 2nd time playing this game, I like it actually but as the consequences I received shots at any places haha... I received more than 8 shots that left me 5 visible bruises lolz... the biggest shot is from my friend at my forehead... yow... now I become like "Lohan Fish" because there is big swollen at my head haha... Good Game btw... Next sem lets play again... lolz...

Back from the match is around 3 and too tired to do anything, but still forcing my self coz me and chan and our hosmate go to "Chen' Wedding Party" (ups almost put "Weeding" party) waakaka... then... take some pics with them and go straight to Asia Cafe for dinner....

'TaraBuddY Session become one of my activities every Saturday, I have a lot of plan for every Saturday, but today session is not as long as usual, its quiet short coz we run out time.... Finish with the session, me, chan, rifin, shinta and Edie have chit chat at medan (Yum Cha) lolz... talk a lot of things...

So that is for Tired and Fun day... and bout strange day... I dunno why but I'm feeling guilty about something, not really clear bout that but I tink I'm one of the problems, I have few problems with my friends actually which I'm trying to solve it but let c... can solve some now, so I hope can solve all ASAP!!!

So... now my head is spinning already, actually I dun think I'm gonna write this long but who noes this end up with long blog of mine... good for me coz first I'm not skipping my blog, second I can pour some of things in my brain here... so now sleep and rest time...

As information, if I cant wake tomorrow maybe I'm gonna skip to temple =P, lets see.... but now still listening to "I Miss You" from Andy Lau... then go sleep... ;)

Take care

Jimz Chan

Sleepy day... ^-^

2009-08-07T22:54:00.003+08:00

Sleepy.. that is my first thing that comes out from my brain, I must admit that today is really sleepy day, coz I need to wake early in da morning at 7, but found my class is... empty?? haha no one come for class at 8 in da morning (actually this is online class and only 6 people enroll for this subject) lolz. When I woke up this morning, one little thought across my mind, "Should I just skip the class? I bet no one come today (and I'm right lolz)" but I promised to someone to not skipping my class so, I wake and take my bath then go to school with sleepy-sleepy face... XD

Tomorrow will be one busy day for me, not only must wake early in the morning but also have 'TaraBuddY gathering, hope I'm not pengsan before all finish. So let's continue, today I spent my day in Final Year Project room becoz Monash closed my 2nd home which is library. Sit in that room until 5.30 then go back with chan, I'm reading and find a lot of alien information regarding my projects, but still not understand but I hope my friends will help me... =P

Back from Monash, I have special dinner tonight because my housemate and his friend cook for us, wao.. delicious... thanks guys, really appreciate it.. (too bad din take pics). Oh now already 11.07 (just realize when looking at my watch), that's mean I need to go sleep coz tomorrow will be one busy and tired day....

Gonna sleep after listen for 2 songs from Andy Lau = "I Miss You and Love You 10 Thousand Years". I Miss You... remind me to someone ^.~
Wan an and have sweet dreams guys...

Take Care
Jimz Chan

Smile... or??

2009-08-07T00:30:00.002+08:00

Today hm.. how to start, today I have no class yeay... so happy but I know that I have a lot of things to be done, now I still have double Tasks 3, and gather information for my final year project which is the worst case...

So shortly, today my time is officially spent to sit at library and read a bunch alien information for my coding part, and try to figure how to do the remain works. But sit for half day in library, I closed my activity with watching movie, actually this event is not planned by me but suddenly and I dunno how, magically I sit in cinema and watch movie... G.I.Joe haha Recommended for u guys, its so cool!!! Good movie to watch when you have something in mind lolz...

Just now I discovered something that make me laugh and smile, not a big thing but I really feel happy when I noe it but that's is for the happy part, I also discovered something that quiet make me hm.. this one can I say jealous? or happy? or... not really clear but something that make me take a deep breath haha... Honestly knowing that things make me become weird for a while, feeling that I felt long time ago, and I'm not used to it actually... so let me keep it locked deep in "that hole" lolz...

nothing much to share, coz as u all noe I'm not good in describing what I wanted to actually haha.... Gonna go sleep coz tomorrow I have 8 O'clock class, so better wake early...
Wan an... cya guys soon again...

Jimz Chan

Yow What's Up!!!

2009-08-06T01:44:00.002+08:00

Yeap, I'm back... seeing Colin start her new blog with new spirit actually give some impacts to me to start my usual work again which is Blogging. Wanna start to pour my feelings, smile and Joy to u all, but I hope all of u wont get bored with my words.

Oh yeah these few weeks is crucial weeks for me where I should start my project but until now, I have nothing and done nothing. In the other hand, my teammate (cant really say teammate coz we only have similar project from same supervisor) is almost finish with his coding... really make me down but I'm still too far from GIVE UP!!! So my target is in the end of this week I need to have "a lot of progress". Hm.. something to share with you all something related to my project, I need to create a software to extract image from the cube and send the code to robots to solve it and it is not a normal Rubik's cube, it is Sudokube. Well sounds so fancy and so COOL!! (for me yeah really cool) but in fact, its really difficult to do and I have no idea how my project will turn into... haha

Before I forget, I want to tell u all that I can solve the Rubik's Cube now... so proud... lolz... ok next topic: because of my projects and all of my works, I ended up with rushing and if I have a due date its gonna be last minutes works (lucky for this sem I have no due date for my works except everything must be done in the end of semester, but I dunno bout AI though).

Now here is following events to come:
1. Paint ball event on this Saturday with YS and my housemates
2. Greeny in Act (sound so hm.. for me really blur haha but we will see about this later)
3. FRIM jungle trekking... yeay another great events...
4. Progressing of my projects due Friday where I need to be able to gather all of information that I need.
5. ??? dunno yet but planning to have something to do for my self... (private things I think, but have no idea yet lolz)

Hm.. I think I write quiet long for this post but whatever, next is... hm.. is.. let me see... dunno blank... suddenly remember about memories when I'm still in US, smile smile smile... really good memory and oways can make me smile haha...

Ok now time to go back to work then sleep... will update soon and maybe back to old time when I'm still blog gin regularly haha...
cao..

Jimz Chan

"Too many" for Ordinary Human

2009-08-02T15:51:00.006+08:00

Too many things to do...

Too many problems to solve...

Too many actions that caused another problems...

Too many options to choose...

Too many activities to involved in...

Too many sadness in heart...

Too many feelings to feel....

Too Many.....

In the end, they just "Too Many" for ordinary human to handle... Sometimes I just want to back to the old me or maybe the baby me that still innocent and dont have "Too Many" that affect me, eventough they were, do I care????

I'm just an ordinary human who cant express anything except "LIE"... Coz they are just "Too Many" for ordinary human....

Jimz Chan

Around 2 weeks since last post....

2009-07-14T01:37:00.004+08:00

Yow... back, since i haven update anything, I want to update something what I did these few days.... I cant remember all but these few days me and Har2, only go out and do nothing actually....

last two days, me and har + ching and her friends who come from indo, travel to KLCC and chinatown, it took 12 hours from 11 morning till 23 pm, so tired but its better than cleaning my house at Tiara....

Talking about Tiara, I just clean a whole house alone, with help from har2 to check haha and the contractors are coming to repair da lamps, so very much works are done and the owner said want to change the fridge to new one, happy hoho but unfortunately i havent contact the owner about the washing machine, it was leaking at last time I check it... huff... need some more works to do....

leave the Tiara house problem's aside, so yesterday me, har n ching + the same group + febry went to the Curve and IKEA, yeay another tiring trip but fun indeed haha.... so when I was in IKEA, I'm not missing the "Swedish meatballs" yaeey... yummy... long time din eat these food... its delicious as ever... and on the other side, har2 with his 2 cups of coffee + 1 muffin + 1 Cinamon roll haha... believe it or not when we finish with those food, we strike to hunt "Curry Puff" hoho... this also one of the fav food at IKEA, so me and har eat 2 pieces each... hoho... and it make us full without dinner wakaka....

A lot of things but wont write all, oh yeah I just finished a puzzle with 108 pieces in approx 1 hour... quiet proud lolz... cant upload coz cant send the pics to my lappie... hmm need to fix something haha

ok now... want to continue read my Book or maybe sleep haha, c u in my next post...
take care

Jimz Chan

Here I come....

2009-07-01T02:00:00.002+08:00

Long time no see guys, sorry have no time to blog coz since my last day of exam, I have a lot of things in my schedule to do.... start from moving out from Lagoon View to Tiara (my new house with Chan, Alex, Rifin and Arie). Yeah a lot of things happened since last week but I try to write all of them here....

So firstly after my last exam, I have great holidae start from packing and moving out to Tiara, it spend a whole day of mine to move and clean the house. Currently the house is still not ready to *ditinggali (English please, Lazy to think) coz of the owner still have no responsibility to fix all the things inside the house. Because of that for now until 17 or 18 of July I will be staying at Har2 place (Thanks bro).

That is about the house, after moving out my parent come from Indonesia for 3 days, yeay... food and shopping time... yeah I accompany them for 3 days and do a lot of shopping (not me but my mom n my sis) lolz... I bought 1 jacket and 1 shirt and not bad since it free from my parents haha but they went back already yesterday so now I'm in malaysia with Har2 and Fimtan who will back at 4? not sure but around dat.... spend our day with FUN things

Next in the list is canceling the Sun Java Training, the training has been postponed since last year which make me have no mood to continue the training, but my parent still have no idea about this so tomorrow maybe I'll tell them and it may cause me to go back to Indo since they will ask me back haha coz nothing to do here haha. Canceling the training is a big deal coz we ask for our refund, the money that we paid last year and have 50% discount from Monash, but anyway I canceled the training lolz...

Next things is my house, yeah I told u guys that I move out, but the old owner of mine ask us to clean the house (what a sh*t, coz when I moved in they never clean it and now they ask me to clean whole house, what a JokE!!!!). So in the end I clean the house with the rest of exhousemate, one funny thing dat I just knew is that one of them never do moping at all, or should I say never see??? coz it seems like he doesnt noe how to use the mop... lalala~~~ in the end all the moping is my job... what a tired day.... so we did cleaning and the end the result is the owner still deduct my deposits coz my room is not clean enough... swt... wanna slap her in da face if I'm there at that time.... and some of things that prev residents did, it caused me and Chan to pay some of the damages, frog... what the b***h.. dun want think anymore... next...

Before I forget, need to thanks Wirhan for his speaker Evo3 haha... he gave it to me coz he want to transfer to Aus, Thanks a lot bro... ok... dun think this one have a lot of words but next~~~~

Now I'm confuse, think that a lot of things happenend and I just have time to blog haha... a lot of things... I'm not sure if I still have but just forget it for now, I'm so sleepy and need to sleep soon haha.... btw tomorrow nite I'm gonna watch ICE AGE 3 in 3D yeaye..... should be fun, with Har, Fimtan and Kherina.... and also tomorrow will go to KARAOKE with Julie, Har and others... haha will sing until no voice wakka...

This is the latest things about me, maybe I forget to put everything but I think this update is enough haha... Good nite, time to sleep....

Take Care
Jimz Chan

After 1st Exam

2009-06-16T20:01:00.005+08:00

Yup today is my 1st exam, honestly I really dunno what I write in the exam paper and was so stressed because the paper... I hope I can pass it... anywae, no need to think bout the thing that pass... now just wanna update some new movie....

Best movie of the years... for MouseHunt mania... u should noe this hoho...
1. SuperMouse (I hope they release the SuperMouse Return version)

2. MouseTrix Trilogy

3. GhostBusters

4. MouseJedi

5. The best movie ever... "HapLess Potter and The order of the Phoenix" ( I hope they change phoenix with mouse) lolz

Credit goes to: MouseHunt Group (more pics there if u wanna c)

Ok Just for fun... Stress week... no choice to update this kind of things...
Take care and still GOOD LUCK for everybody

Jimz Chan

Exam is coming!!!

2009-06-06T00:41:00.001+08:00

Short update to tell u all that Exam is coming so we need more preparation and study more!!! Not like previous semesters, this semester I feel like too relax but my heart is scared with this exam... hope I can more focus!!! yeah as u all noe, every sem I will put one code before start exam... here we go...

public class Exams
{
public static void whileExams(Study study, Effort effort)
{
System.out.println("Exams is Coming: What should I do???");
for(int date=now; date < exams.date ; date++)
{
if(study < target)
{
study = study + target + effort;
effort++; study++; concentrate++;
sleep--; play--;
}

else if (study == effort)
{effort++; concentrate++;}

else
{study++; effort++; concentrate++;}

if(sleep == tooTired)
{
sleep++;
if(tooMuchSleep)
{whileExams(study,effort);}
else
{System.out.println("Time to Continue Study");}
}
}
}

public static void main(String[]args)
{
whileExams(study,effort);
System.out.println("Good Luck Everyone ");
System.out.println("Wish All da Best...");
}
}

Good Luck guys... Study Smart!!! and Study Hard!!!
Jia You!!!

Take Care
Jimz Chan